I used to sit in my room at night, cry and wish you were there for me
Eleven years, every night, another million tears for me to see
Count that that’s 31 million in a months time, times that by…
Twelve, that’s 327,000,000 tears that in one single year I have cried,
That’s way too many for me to cry, just as a little girl alone
Tear learned to dry out before they fell from my eyes, I’m finally grown
I can’t cry over you as much, you turned out to be a man perplexed
Constantly in a battle to see what I don’t want shown, what next?
Would you like me to be near you when I want to remain in alone?
Make me tell you all my solitary fears just to have my heart blown
It don’t matter how grown I am, sometimes cry cause your not here
When I want to see into your shining green I have to wait another year
I still look like a little girl; does that make me innocent in your eyes?
Years are piling upon you, although wise you look cold, burdened by your lies
You’ve lived them long enough, divorced my momma cause you were cheating
Did you ever stop to think of me and Shawn, for you our hearts were beating
Cried, when momma got remarried, to that awful man, you knew he was cruel
You didn’t say anything about it, tried so hard to hurt her, she’s nobody’s fool
Her marriage didn’t last anything more that maybe five years and after all that
The arguing ceased, he turned and walked away to a cab, didn’t even tip his hat
After a few years had past, he called…from your house, being tried for treason
And all that I can do is wonder, wonder who, and why… you’re the reason
How could I cry over you, after all you did? Every single time I came to visit
You were either married or engaged again, and right on your lap she’d sit
Isn’t that where your little baby girl should have sat? Where I would sit to talk to you
Tell you all my little wants and wishes, and what the day has brought me through
I got over it, because my big brother Adam put me upon his leg, and played silly games
I came to think that was how it was supposed to be, my big brother taking the fame
I left in the past, you were trying to find your true love, I can realize that by this age
When I was little I didn’t it just felt like that was how life was going to turn its page
Throughout eleven years, you married seven women, married two of them two times
Well… I hate to be rude, but that was a huge waste all of those of church bell chimes
But now you’re back with momma, deciding to raise me and Shawn, even after we grew
It isn’t our fault that you weren’t there, to help the two of us, and watch us through
It isn’t momma’s problem that you weren’t there to put your touch in our lives
You were always too pre-occupied with whichever one of those other wives
If anything is going to come out of you coming back to momma, trying to be apart of her
It’s going to become so self-evident that you don’t understand us, and life becomes a blur
I don’t let you completely into my life by now, I’m getting to the point where I won’t
Simply can’t let you share my pain, you’ll take it all wrong, so in that case, I don’t
Do you realize that Shawn and I understand what you yell about, what do you take us for?
We grew up without you, that don’t mean we can’t understand yelling through a door
Don’t take out your unhappy days all on us; no one is stopping you from leaving
Its not like you haven’t left before, it wouldn’t be a new feeling for us to be conceiving
Just pack up, walk out, and swear at us as you go, that way I know your still heartless
I’ll give you maybe 3 months at most, to call back to us, and break down and confess
You probably hate it because three of us in this home are all so close to one another
We’re not like you; we don’t close doors, start yelling, and talk trash about the other
I heard what you said about me and Shawn, and don’t expect me to tell you I know
I’m so close to giving up on this, you hate your two youngest children, and it shows
You yell at Shawn and I every single chance that you are given, and we cant yell back
What did we do to you? We didn’t leave; it wasn’t us that threw your life off track
You know what, forget it, tonight, I’m finally done with this, I’m giving in
I don’t care if you hate be for who I am, yelling at me for who I like is your last grin
Don’t look into my face anymore, I don’t want to see your face either, its pain
Pain too great to bear, how is it that I ever even found it in myself to cry over you
You’re my single greatest fear, for some reason in your presence I become cold and blue
I guess that my innocence was led by ignorance, spending those nights crying, daddy dear
Don’t even touch me, please don’t love me, don’t ever again think about holing me near
I know that I won’t mean this forever and ever on… Your my daddy, and I do love you
I just hate that for so long, I cry for daddy, and I then see the things you put me through
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