Hanging High
I’m at cliff’s edge with the rope wrapped tight.
Marijuana has me passed high, & my bad sight-
Grasps light weirdly, as I watch time pass by.
I’m hesitant to jump from here and kiss the sky.
..That’s when I look up, & the sun hits my eye,
Reminding me of Jessica, & I begin to fear not.
But memories of her that day make a tear drop..
“Blah, Blah! ‘Life is short’.. Fuck life support!
My life is warped because of tubes and wires!.
Let my body die, & let my soul sooth the fire!..
There is nothing to cry for!.... Dr. Leddy tried
Now unhook me.. Please.. Please.. Let me die”
I watched her argue to die - It broke my heart.
My wife of 46 years’s soul was broke in shards.
Dying of cancer. All I could be was sit bed-side,
& watch her be unhooked, as the Med. Cried.
“Stop crying, Dr. Leddy - Everyone has to die
Want to make it better? Get me a warm apple pie.
All of you nurses, go tend to someone, buddies..
I want to spend this time, alone, with my hubby.
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.. Now that they’re gone, come & lay with me.
Lets talk of days, which we lit trees. Hahaha!..
The seventies were sweet, huh?.. Please, hun-
Don’t be sad.... Look at how far we’ve come”
She brought a smile to my face & wiped tears.
“Here’s your pie” Dr. Leddy said. “right here”.
I laid in that bed with my wife in my arms, tight.
Did we eat that pie up? Haha, you darn right!..
And as we laid, we started to talk less & less..
I watched my wife slowly die - The test of tests.
I couldn’t help notice that her hand was weak.
She scooped the last of the pie & began to speak
“ *cries*.. That pie was sooo good, baby...
We can still be together - Call me crazy, but...”
After she told me what to do to be with her, I agreed
& forced a, huge, smile to hide the grief
“Before you do it, please go back for me..
& hit the Mary Jane - For the sake of the seventies”
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Do it, hun, & I will be with thy.. in a form...”
Then the sun hit my eyes, & my love died in my arms
So I find my self, here, high on the cliff’s edge,
Doing exactly what the, beautiful, Mrs. Said..
Thinking of her smile made me dump the fears
I take a lone deep breath - Then jump from here.
See, I couldn’t just mope around & live to sob,
So I hit the weed, & bungee chord did it’s job
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I’ve never done it, but Jessica always did it to forget the strife
So in my loneliness - I find it, the only way to be with my wife
Now, every time, I get lonely, I light up my Mary Jane pipe, and come to her favorite spot. At least for those 15 seconds in the air, I’m not alone anymore..
I love you, Jessica.
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