A Disciple's Thread

[A Disciple]

The Pin

Fuck you, you wanna fight?
Ok… I’ll sit here and write
The drama the drama the drama the fucking drama
I can’t help it that I don’t wanna, and I ain’t even done shit
You so like fuck it, it’s over… nah… maybe I quit!
My lipstick?
If you can’t stand to see me shine - that’s it
Yo somebody dropped a pin
I don’t know who and I don’t know how
Prolly the feds… listen
Listen right fucking now!!!
But nah….
FINE!
And if you do have a bitch and it was her
These last 2 hours were worth all the blur
You had a bad day…
Why you take that out on me?
You didn’t care what I had to say?
You act like I’m cheating… yo you so fucking funny….

FUCK LOVE…. I WANT MY OWN MONEY!!!!!


… why all my shit getting deleted?

[Lenox]

Pretty sure slavery pre-dated every known nation that exists today.

Ramble on..

Lmaooo

[A Disciple]

@Lenox thanks lol but read it… I sweae

[Lenox]

@Lenox thanks lol but read it… I sweae

I believe u, honey bunch

[A Disciple]

To: Letter to My Son



Dear Son:

Silent screams… yeah I remember the time
And that poa like I was supposed to know the whole time?
Bite… I don’t bite and I don’t suck blood
Even if that means I never should
It all hits so empty like I’m some dumb floating piece of drift wood
“She been thru a lot but didn’t say shit”
X I’m all grown now, even more alone, but forgot more then I remember a little bit
Just all I know is there are worse things to be then dead
And with that said…
I pay my respects too
Wish I had the chance to meet you
And me and God nah we not thru
Just another chapter for me too

(( drugs part)))
(Pick up at ok)

A wish I could never undo
But the angels are everywhere smiling
Smiling on me for you
They still whiling but for all the fights I found love for them too
He knows what’s going on and not telling me so in a way he’s still lying
At least those are his rule for me but in return and believe me I’m trying

(The singing part)

(Over instrumental)

When I was screaming that I’m sorry
I was out my mind and in hind site thought he could’ve been mine but wasn’t. So please don’t think bad of me it’s just was cause I was hit and needed help with it

But X… me?
If life is anything you can make it Lord
Why then do we have so much misery?
When life so hard and I don’t think I can take it anymore Lord
Will Jesus still be there to carry someone like me?
regardless how long it took to see?

Please guide me…
I was 5… 13… 16 no more… until 24 33 but I’m shutting the code down and locking the door
Who was I to judge a whore… but I can’t stand my man for it even more
Drama isn’t what my pen is for…
I just feel stupid always following Cupid
To see everywhere where things went wrong
It took me too long to go back and listen to this song
So divided cause he right
But divided cause it’s not fair and I hate to fight

This song was tight

[A Disciple]

t. So please don’t think bad of me it’s just was cause I was hit and needed help cause it*

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And got it guys…

[A Disciple]

To: Skyscrapers

(Start at DMX)
He’s being so mean to me today
I think it’s when someone else is there that things end up going this way
But it’s cool cause I know better then to be mad and not pray
And all these other rules and such of a game I won’t play
Baby…
Don’t fall in too deep for the games
When you shouldve just been taking names
The shadows on graves… I wish I kept the pic
Or every other hallucination that still haunts me when i was left alone and sick

(Listen to second verse)

(Over music)
I got punished too but you laugh when I say I don’t have pics of kids to post like you do
(That’s abuse too)
Troll or not
No love made me a thot
I’m not gonna put all that blame on you
But if that’s what I believe too much
It puts me back out of touch while thinking of reasons that it all could be true
Or let’s talk about life when we win
It hurts… I’m so hurt right now
But I’m not gonna let the pain begin
“While seeking more knowledge I went to hoe college” and graduated with a degree in ice
Oh ok… I ain’t Santa but you think I don’t know or care about to who you been naughty or nice…
Some advice?
Think once but look twice
I never got married so I if don’t make it my funeral gonna be a wedding
And all the other things of such I lived for but was never getting
I say the sky blue you say no it’s navy
These past 5 weeks idk what got into you but believe me it’s all gravy
When God shows his mercy don’t forget to thank him for the day
Cause you don’t have to live in hell no more you free so fly away
In everything I ended up living for i will still pray to protect you…
Even though you fucked with the head of a rose that was already dead too
FUCK YOU!

[A Disciple]

@Soule

[Soule]

Because you spam the section with your open mics. You been told a couple times by staff to stop, that's why we made a thread for you.

[A Disciple]

Thanks

[A Disciple]

Thanks for making me smile only I’ve been crying my eyes out… you wanna hear something fucked yo? I’m only crying out one eye I think cause the surgery

[A Disciple]

Fell the fuck out when I heard this

[A Disciple]

To: What I Was Made For

I’m not a lie and I can’t really cry
But I know…
This is not what I was made for
On your way out… don’t forget to lock the back door
All I do is fall…

(What was I made for) x2

I can’t fight the spectrum
But the pain too deep it don’t hurt none
And maybe one day again I will feel… and as fake as I am why all I speak is real?
this isn’t what I was made for

“something you just pay for”
(What was I made for) x1

I can drive my ass off though
And can rhyme In stereo or
Turns out I’m not real either
But please believe I don’t wanna be her
Why I have these dreams I could never obtain for?
Like a family…nothing can hurt more

(I don’t know how to feel but someday maybe I will)

Today I do
Something that burns deep in my soul that without it I can’t remain
You wanna talk about immense pain
The very reasons why I went insane

What if you did it for the ones who didn’t care
And then dismissed the ones that were really there
It’s not what I was made for… but ok we here
I’m not happy anymore and I have to make that clear
Don’t tell my bf that’s not why he’s here

It wasn’t worth the pain from the start
“It’s not what I was made for”
Cause I have a good heart
Tagged at 13… I waited a year when I woke up…. WTF for
Evidentially that’s not what I was made for and I don’t care and I’m not scared any.more
But I’m cut AGAIN to the core

(What was I made for)

When will the pain go
When will I stop hearing the echo

“( think I forgot how to be happy something I’m not but something I can be something I wait for something I’m late for… something I was made for” )

[A Disciple]

I put on Tupac and he skip just like every other song I like or need to hear

[A Disciple]

Guys… thanks for helping me so much with my thread and stuff… I’m trying my best to promote the site and get it live again too… like this site has been so therapeutic for me and I can’t wait to give back too @Soule and anyone else still live here!