Letter for Heather
Writing this letter... I'm desperate, distant and bogus, sent with a fistful of withered roses,
I am left with our kingdom, my mistress is hopeless and is now evicted and she's homeless,
I'm lonesome tonight, our thrones sit aligned right where you told 'em to set 'em that night,
The only bonus is the coldness for which I now write, the coldest I've ever dared to resite,
The tight grip on which I hold this pen is my boldest and its the kind of trip that never ends,
It just all blends together, our oldest friends are laughing at me. Never have I told of this,
So I know its you and you must be acting happy, Heather, back when we were together,
We'd endeavour and treasure our pleasuse, forever we kept Heaven in stellar foundations,
Now I'm at the end of the teather and patience because of your predator-like accusations,
All allegations, our once feather-light conversations are all now leather-like confrontations,
Fake and pleather-like but degrading, I am at the edge of a knife with the craving to fall,
Then I'm saved as you call, only to taunt me, you haunt me, you saw me, you caught me,
Say you stalked me, the order of normality was shifting out through the doors of insanity,
And the cause of this tragedy was the core of this man in me, actually, we talked happily,
'Til you threatened to catch me, and that alone is the only fact that brings back my agony,
I think of what happened, see through the black and the white mould into your grey hair,
And think the antique matter that we shared will stay cursed and I will always remain her's,
Worse for wear, I'm hurt and nervous, careless, I'm bare and air-less, burned with curlers,
Hairnet's still bless our bed, caress my head when I sleep, making sure every dream I reap,
Cheap and nasty, but, bastard, its that that keeps me alive in my sleep... Your false teeth,
The insane thought of you without them forced me to throw them out, and then I weeped.
How I'll ever amount to anything more than a lout, a heap, a thief, a clout, a mouth-piece,
A sneak, so weak without you here, fear dying without you, constanlty fearing I am alone,
On my own in this, I bow to defeat, I cannot control this, I'm on my knee's - Again I weep,
My nose leaks, toes peak, Im coldly hoping you accept I threw her out in this cold weather,
Did I ever know better? Never knew anything, Heather, need I accept I've lost you forever?
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Duel of Honour - The People (Johnny 6-Feet; Aeschylus)
Awaking to Reality - Deviate (Crew Battle verse against Illus' Artis)