My dedication is......
either non-existent or has gone fishin..
cause the only thing im dedicated to is wishin..
for a better reality.. with a heavy cheddered salary..
instead of fallacies.. and broken promises to challenge me..
im hoping honesty will balance me thru this hourly wage..
cause my courage is too cowardly to battle for a raise..
it doesn't have the power to get me out of this cage..
im trapped..
engaged in all this petty non-sense and crap..
this bullshit act.. that's what you can call it, i guess..
plus, on top of that.. im also an alcoholic mess..
my liver gets almost all of my check.. & yes,
i try to drown my regrets.. in liquor, but they just..
simply float to the top.. it doesn't stop..
i got 50 & Pac beat.. the way i keep taking shots..
i've gotta get away from this vodka & bacardi O..
cause i'm grown.. yet, i can't let go of the party though..
it started slow..
a couple of years ago.. with a couple of beers or so..
now im here, a pro.. a full blown champ of fifths..
who can't get a hold of his own damn relationship..
im just now facing it.. things haven't changed a bit..
it's been three long years.. of the same ol' basic shit..
but i ain't saying i want to go & replace this quick..
i just want to rearrange the way we relate to it..
i hate to admit.. but this monotony is making me sick..
its gotten me to the point, where if it wants.. fate can quit..
or take a vacation & split..
at least i'll know what my dedication is..
My dedication is.................. to my life & wasting it.
This is how a feel every fucking day....![]()