Outside I look normal, jus a teenager goin through rough times
Unbruised on the surface, fake smiles to please unaware minds
Its like a show I put on every day, I just gotta pretend to be fine
Cause people askin stupid questions, only makes me keep lyin
Grades steadily dropping in School, no motivation to try hard, fuck strife
As I watch rain splash on my car, It paints a smeared picture of my life
Another day gone by for me, Emotions tell me it's still one too many
Contemplate suiced often, wonder where my soul would send me
My feelings I hide, pent up inside...
Fuck this
I can't fuckin take it anymore! Fuck all those that made me like this
Lingustics can't describe my rage, Feelings hiding from outside sources
Can't keep this shit pent up anymore, Now aggression is spewing out
Cut my wrists and lick the blood, Then savor the taste in my mouth
You aint never seen me like this! But this is how I truly emotionally feel!
You fuckers would never understand! To you all of this shit aint real!
I storm through my room in a rampage, tears cause double vision like reflections
See a disgrace staring at me in the mirror, and then shatter the complexion
My personal life is in peices, Abusive relationships and shattered dreams
You see the fake me, but only my heart, soul and mind know me Behind the Scenes