Originally Posted by Diary
It's just.
i never lived a normal life, outside i appear normal right?
it's funny
When you look for small shit, you miss the answer right before your eyes
i've got a story life, thats the reason im so tore inside
and why im trying to dig out my inner child with this gory knife
Against my veins, see its sick, thats you judging me
In person im probably more regular then you'll ever fucking be
but im so fucking disgusted, looking for some release
from this dark cage of my life, i cant fucking breathe
on the surface, it appears im geared for this shit
but i've got a one track mind.
and my train of thought is steered for a cliff
you want bittersweet? here taste the tears on my lips
maybe then you'll be able swallow some of my years as a kid..
where i stared scared at my father,mom's palms in his face
nicknamed trojan blooper,yes.. i was called a mistake
you never realise how much balls that it takes..
to see your parents pick up and start walking away
Orphaned. alone in a closet for days
till they found me, shipped and booked me off with the state
agents, i hated them, they loved calling me names
i swore on my absent parents i'd take em all to the grave
thats what i did, execution style, like they did to my hopes
i abused them. sorta like i did with the dope
they begged for life, didnt give a fuck, my eyes were heavy
why grant them life, their part of the world that took mine already
So i shot them, castrated men and put cocks in their throats
my ship sunk. im underwater still rocking the boat.
so dont feel bad when you see me laid on the rug
I used this world's knife in my back for the grave that i dug.
P.S how the fuck can you have a inner child when you didnt have a childhood?
