I have a story to tell...

[Jon]

I have a story to tell.

I miss you...
But still I wish -
mom was a miss.
Faking affection,
rejecting connection
touch hands -
hold me close...

Push me hard,
I have fallen again.
Deeper into this cut,
a hole in my soul.
A million hearts
wouldn't beat a love
strong enough for you.

I'm weak...

Other brothers snicker -
but I need sugar,
give me candy bars.
Under the lighted tree,
an empty box, for me.
An empty box for you,
cancer sticks pounds
your lungs are dented..

Our meetings
subtle, no meaning.
Awkward hugs
inspiration forced.
Absentee's
asking me,
what’s happening.

Confused twisted
my mind is tangled,
our lunch never
showed up.
I waited patiently,
no nurse,
no paper sheet.

I missed you...

Where is this going,
I remain...
removed,
rejected,
abandoned -
our lives, far apart.

An orphan
a mothers boy,
a fathers denial.
My blue jeans
still haven't faded.
But you have...

Close to home,
knocking on doors,
the answer
is lost forever.
Digits dialed -
heads ringing;
picking up
with machines...

Maybe it's me?

I use you,
tools bend to often.
Accompany me,
glasses -
I see nothing.
Frameless,
lens-less,
friendless...

A decade or so,
avoiding pain -
drug use,
another excuse.

Your joints
don't bend,
stiff...
I should've known,
you can't reach out -
I'm just at finger length.

Unconditional
embarrassment,
harass our pasts.
Family names,
bullied, words
break over pride;
no stones are 'just',
twigs of concrete.

'If...'

Two letters,
almost alike
forming wonders.
I wonder:
what if,
it could be fixed;
what if,
it was different;
what if,
a love was lived.

But,

Knowing ways
of these
lonely days,
I slowly pace.
Too bad
my dreams
laced together
a phony face.

Toss this in
my closet -
hide it in
a boney place.

Your frame
a skeleton.
Brain, powerless.
Potty mouth,
needless to say
you're full of it.

I am content,
with only growing
the facial expressions,
bearded time.

Another month,
pocket-less change
like a spent dollar.
If I had a penny,
for you...
I'm broke, still begging.

Man,
or should I say;
stranger...

You've left me,
bed time stories
full of fictional truth.
But those -
better left unsaid,
so you did...

Escaping the wound,
a prison, a new beginning.
You didn't help me,
not even a lift.

Keep me from reality,
I need dreams
bright infront -
headlights on high beam.
You've robbed my hope,
it is too bad,
call it counterfeit.

I'm gambling,
I bet...
you want the best,
thus ignoring
synthetic fear.

Forge me another one,
dumb it down
water is soluble,
drown me in lies, again.

Dad...

If lies were love...
only
If lies were love...

[Jamhuri]

wow. Long one, but enjoyable still. I guess i relate to the poem in some way. I have an absentee 1 too. He's in hospital right now, pretty critical state and its funny how the need for his nods dont wane with his waning.

Knowing ways
of these
lonely days,
I slowly pace.
Too bad
my dreams
laced together
a phony face.

Toss this in
my closet -
hide it in
a boney place.

tasty. put a smile on my face

[Jon]

Thanks, uppin.

[Spoken Deity]

you dropped amazing. You had some interesting, grabbing, original lines of imagery that just knocked on my skull's door. it was deep, it was moving, it was chalked full of content...There were some places wording could be changed but it didnt kill anything. Your metaphors, similes and wordplay were on point man. Just a good piece!
Pretty sure I read this in IE so ya... you know

[Jon]

thanks

[Ebolorama]

I apologize for not hitting this up sooner. I really liked the whole concept! I know that you sent this to me on pm but I must have forgotten to get back to you or something. I like how this piece pulled me in, in such a way that was suitable for the emotion that was broadcast in this piece. I really liked your wordplay the most. It was sharp and didnt lack any. i will get at you about that collab later today.

[Jon]

word, I'll write something up for it if I dont have to work

[Alphaeus]

A good piece from you Jonothan
You brought a nice concept and played around with some new ideas, to help make this piece great.
Imagery was nice through out and description was vivid and was brought to the attention of the reader.
Emotion was seaping from this piece in my opinion, it really made me want to read on and on. Structure was nice and your piece ran smoothly

[Jon]

Appreciated