A track I wrote 2 years ago to a beat by the Beast Sinima.......
[Verse 1]
Sometimes Im tryin, but these times are even harder
and Im guardin only one thing thats left in my heart,
I look up in the sky and I get lost in the stars
just wishin I was diffrent but Im lost in the cause,
and I have to admit, yea, the sufferings inadaquit,
the pain it never changes, its flowin through the same veins,
Im rackin up some change just to buy a pack of cigarettes
2.50$ a 40, Ima die when my liver kicks,
I dive in a river, never to be again
Im never to see again and never to breathe again,
I never make it to the end couse nothins makes sence
sit and I pour it in text and bless you with a messige,
of an intencely tensed up verse of words
ya gotta hurt em and you curse em If you want to make em learn,
you gotta warn em of the shame and the darkest walks
you gotta ward em of the pain and let the heart just talk it,
[Hook]
[Verse 2]
Ive prayed to god alot just to help me out
but Im lien to myself, he aint helpin me out,
god only helps those who help them selfs
so I try to turn my life around and help my self,
I wanna fly when I die not traped in hell
I wanna make life worth livin and make it to tell,
I wanna make it to the top and I dont ever wanna stop
Im feelin so alive now Im feelin the shock,
and I dont ever wanna leave so Im breakin this block
inside of me thats turnin me with greed and evil,
Im alert now, so Im learnin from people
how Ill never make the same mistake they just made,
but I swear it Ill change, though its hard to today
baby Ill take another rout and maybe change my ways,
so Ima take another path but Im keepin it hard top
and keep it movein and keep it walkin untill my heart stops,
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
See I hate life but Im headed in the right level
I care about people everybody in the strugle,
just keep hangin on it'll get better I promis
couse if I could do it you could do it Ive burned in the lava,
Ive felt so chewd up and used and bruised up
and livin in this life Ive said Ive delt with to much,
and livin in this cage in this painfull maze
in the gates of hell where the flames is blazin,
I swore to god Id give these people amazment
and give em what they wanted though losein my pationents,
they only want the best so Ima show em sucsess
and Ima give em what they came for your damn for sure,
that Ima give em what they paid for my name on a shirt
my face and my pain though the poring rain,
and my hate and my taste of what I call music
nothin but the best and yea Im one to abuse it,