Seeking Freedom
Im not running from God, Im coming to my senses.
I understand that Im wrong, but Im not giving up my defences.
So what if Im selfish for helping myself see through the pretences of Heaven.
For wanting to escape the endless fences that relentlessly replace reality with fantasy.
For breaking away from a confined space of empty helpless selfless souls locked in apathy.
I cant act like Im happy while actually hiding away the facts that matter to me.
I asked you nicely to go freely, but you declined saying you needed me.
You told me you wouldn't breathe easy because you'd feel you were leaving me.
I said Ill always be alien to atheism because Ill always believe in you...
Dont think you're abandoning me, Im the one one who's leaving you....
I've got wings hidden under my coat...
...I don't know if you can see them.
My halo's been hidden in hope...
... I believe in seeking freedom.
...Constant darkness for 7 weeks, rains been falling heartlessly crumbling mountain peaks.
You sent a tsunami that didn't harm me but killed far to many of your own children.
You took an army and led them from harmony and gave the sick pricks plane tickets.
You fixed it so Hitler would kill and Churchill would be forced to build a force of misled youths.
You killed all the jews, you used the blacks as fools and enslaved them as tools.
You took away great minds in there prime and each time you did it blissfully.
I wish that you would listen instead of forceably insisted that history be hand-written by me,
Blistering me with blame, a pain so severe that I cant bare to persevere.
The burdon I carry is a mere sign that my wriddled spine and the wrinkled lines I express are a sentance.
A decleration of anti-independence... A plea made in blood for my penance...
I've got wings hidden under my coat...
...I don't know if you can see them.
My halo's been hidden in hope...
... I believe in seeking freedom.
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I cant finish nothing lately... Ive tried and tried to finish this, but it never worked. But i also like this as it is, you have to read it a couple of times to understand it I think...
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