Yeah I'm a dreamer, i've just had trouble sleeping
I was an activist until my activeness started depleting
Now I sit here, wondering exactly where shit went wrong
Starting to find it hard to write when I can't feel the gift of song
A talent unmatched, but i've met mine, i'm starting to fade
I find myself worrying about the negatives cause I can't make the grade
The standard is high, wet eyes, yeah i'm an artist. . .
But i've lost my brush, easel, and Words. . . . .
. . . . . . . . . . Guess I won't make it regardless
My problem, I said fuck my brain, I'll let the ink think
But i'm out of it, this proves to not always follow a gut instinct
I've made many a rapper eat they apple like Eve did to Adam
From first to last and back, I've come full circle like a ring on Saturn
And this pattern of Stock Market, up and down, it's breakin' me
Mentally, It's makin' me lose what's taken me. . too long to build
I'm like a prone knight on the mic now, i'm here sans my shield
I'm feeling uneasy. . . Somebody help me. . .
To channel this panel of pain I've felt, Please. .
Be considerate of my less enthusiastic Spirit. .
This ain't no theatrics this is real rappin' shit, Feel it. .
I don't know brail, so hell, the deaf. . bare with me. .
I used to be a hungry mu'fucka, not willing to share an MC
Envy, I seen it, they mean it when they say i'm wack . .
But after my best tracks, tongues are biten, N they take it back
Now i'm taken aback by my lack of perserverance. . .
I've gave the block no clearance to fuck up this writer's village
Of fresh ideas, look at the kid, searching for a reflection. .
I pale in comparison to my former destined for dopeness self
I'm now considered an antique picture, yet withered, Wealth. .
Is not seeing me, have I fallen off the face of this fucking earth ?
Shoulda known the sun's smile was vile as I landed on the axis of hurt
The fine line between love and hate seems to be the equator. .
Too hot to cross, met my demise like Darth Vader, the Procrastinator
The has-been interrogator, some labels that have been bestowed
Upon me, I quiver in the river running with nothing, no padals to row
No place to go, so I sit and get eat alive by my insecurities. .
Cause I can't be securing see, if shit keeps occuring Fre -
-Quently, the vicinity in which my thoughts were once the enemy
Isn't feared, now it's fear itself I fear near the Assembly. . .
Of all doubters, It's all crowded, I'm touted the Worst. . .
Can I find my inner strength N Prove that the worse is first ?
Disperse of energetic N hectic lines, killing skeptic minds. .
N Finally catch up with the clock, I'm done running behind time !
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