Worlds apart but 2 still dispearce at the same time,
Leave me on my own, Once again, wow, another time,
The energy drained from me like brine and rejection like a snapped spine,
I find comfort in the mind but its fucks me up more until stars realign,
The sky is my release as i i create emotions that defy confines.
2 girls split like they know eachother is it me with my fucked signs,
I stay green with jealousy all year round im like a fuckin pine...tree,
I want somethin within i get close and i flee what could it be?
do i like being alone? prone to rejection, from a people to my phone,
I try and home in on wat it is but im still miles away, Day by day,
I lose my way, lead astray with a belief that like to betray,
I prey to be a better person but its only I that can change,
Who i like can change, my thoughts.....I cant get my feelings across,
so i resort crying, the anger fills and things start flying, With fits of rage,
Trapped within confounds that make me realise the treatment of slaves,
Fucked up maj-orly and i couldnt help but suffer in my turmoil and ask why,
Why did i cry? why did i cry? why did i cry? infront of people with macho lives,
such a fuckin pathetic thing to do as they laughed, infront of me where could i hide?
Mocked at a low point when i needed them, realized they weren't at all men,
No matter what there size, How i hate me back then, how i hate me now,
nothing but a void that plows, through my body like an allotment of death,
every breath life get less to perspire this mess would be best....
Dressed in a shrowd that covers myself i try and be prowd,
but How, Im sorry about that shit i forgot how it made u feel,
Every row, i leave and ceal, over as the pain stays and wont heal,
its not just the drugs that get me out of bead, instead its what i could feel,
please I prey for my mind to congeal, But it doesnt seal and become solid,
and far from it, how will i survive in college?
Everything is so plastic, Savour my body in an open casket,
Im too far past it to get back quick, I thought i woulda lasted,
Im hittin myself with rapstick but im still droppin mediocre stuff,
Not near a classic, And nowhere near placid, basically ive had it.
Unhappy like travis tunes that i hear, snappin at my pints,
NOBODYS HAVING MY FUCKING BEER, KISS MY FUCKIN REAR,
this is what ive become so fucking stupid, my most important year,
But i cant do anythin but blame myself, maybe drop a tear,
Why though, whats the difference, everything is done now, out of existance,
My persistance wasnt strong i was laced with ignorance, happiness in the distance....
I feel like nobody ever listens, i hear everybody else and help the missions,
But they feel like they need competitions and heed to beat me past the post,
Most are now ghosts with past memories of our close times closed,
release with anger and rage on my house, leave it crumbled as i go out,
feeling refreshed, But still always vexed, fuck this mess....
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