A Disciple's Thread

[NoNun2]

Congratulations… a baby and a new car! Why everyone else get what I wanted?

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If I leave them they get new cars… who does that?

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He could have found a way to tell me so I didn’t have to get sick too

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Or at least not believe him when he say that he loved me

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Yeah that’s why he was mentally abusing the fuck out of me

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I’m ok…

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If I leave them they get a car?

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Since 2901 - when do I get something?

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2001*

[NoNun2]

Miss you…

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I’m so stupid I keep telling myself maybe you are still alive

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I know it’s his baby… fuck that hell no I’m not going thru that again

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Especially when some bought ass bitch has 4 now and I have none

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It cut deeper then when ced did that to me

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She younger than his fucking kids smh

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Heard he spent $60k on her too

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Gave me hardly nothing

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I’m not the one pac

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My mom scared cause I’m drinking again but it’s only 2 nips… I don’t know how to bleed without it

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I knew that was a penthouse… I wish but nah if it’s not you no

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I don’t trust NO MAN but you and never will again

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Come get me anytime I BEEN ready

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I’ll never understand why I’m so cursed

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Nothing but pain and I’m so fucking tired

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The only thing that keeps me strong… is I won’t see you again if I do - and slick shit still counts

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Even talking so much shit he do it himself - I fucking hate him pac

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Yo I fucking hate him for everybody too

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I’m gonna try to sleep… me and j having bagels in the morning if I can sleep tonight

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It takes like 5 hours to fall asleep some nights

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The voices… they won’t shut up but I don’t wanna change my meds again that’s hell too

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Nah there isn’t nothing he can do on this earth to make it up… its a wrap

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PAIN… nothing bur PAIN and I’m tired

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Wish my dad was still here

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He loved me

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It felt like even he was giving me signs to say ok I can trust again… nah I wish I never met the mother fucker for real

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My birthday Friday… at least I’m feeling strong I won’t be in mental on it again (which I have a few times)

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Cursed for not even ONE reason why

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I’m a go to school and make up hours… at least I won’t be alone

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Nite angel…