I Won’t Do That for You


You feel the circle, you know the switch
If you’re not committing the crime too then it’s ok to snitch
They’re everything I’m against down to my core and my being
But its only half of the hell that you’re seeing
They kiss my hands, they pin my nose…
Or it’s excruciating pain for hours each night or sick shit cause no one knows
They try to force my prayers to them like I ever even went to them for help before
They make the switch, the final throw, then walk away so suspicion is not on them anymore
So why do they always come back for more?
At first I felt safe because I thought the only person it could be was Chris
With sacred blood from my neck to knee it was the only way it made sense
But every round they go it gets worse and worse
You’d think you’d had to at least did something wrong to live life with a curse
I imagine they sould it like I was some slave
But when you have to live to face it anyway you learn to be brave
And in all the split seconds, the side of the good or the bad
Memories come flooding back with the information you always needed but never had

When I refuse to allow them to make amends, I feel my heart ache
I’m sorry but I just can’t even do that for you – cut all ties, all strings, even acquaintances of acquaintances – cause I earned and deserve a clean break.

I NEVER not ONCE did them wrong!
So why would you even want me to so strong?

(Witches got tricks… for real)

So I can’t… I won’t even do that for you…
These are the things we all have to answer for and in my core going back for more I just won’t do!