Flowers for the Dead
Marlin,
You were the first to notice me when I was new to the school
I used to stayed sober plucking blunts out your mouth but still we were cool
Up all night on the phone… now I’m all alone… running thru all these memories
When I first saw your nephew I almost dropped to my knees
It was like he was you and your soul was reborn
You always treated me like a rose well aware of the thorn
I remember riding listening to instrumentals while you all would flow
I used to be so amazed at how you did that and I want you to know
Sometimes I wonder if that’s why I started throwing heat to these barrs
Learning how to heal the emotional scars
When I heard you was dead I didn’t know how to feel… I couldn’t deal
I regret not making services but at work down south it was just too unreal
In every lesson you taught me I still remember to weigh all the cost
Hubby showed me where you’re grave is but still I always get lost
(Maybe reminding me you right here)
Derrick,
Sometimes it’s like games rise using our allies
And you realize…
When playing spades… you can up your books if one suit is low
I still don’t know if Ced even know…
Now these days your gone but I still remember you
Cause you were the first one to show me how to do it too
My legs on your shoulders as my heart learned to grow colder
When you went deep it felt like you was opening chambers
And when I was hanging with you it was like I forgot what his name was
You probably thought I was so dumb when we moved in together
And you were right… we couldn’t even “use umbrellas to get thru that weather”
No one ever knew I used to think of baby names when I thought of you
Your name will always be etched in my heart
I still laugh… who knew “we’d be trouble right from the start”
Chris,
I’m so grateful I was always up against a ghost
Cause doing my best always taught me the most
I still feel so guilty it was you instead of me
But if I make it with this writing thing, I got your daughter, Corey, and your family
Late night, early mornings, ghost riding that Ac
You taught me how to curb my temper but I still can’t think before I act
I know it was you keeping me awake in that empty office parking lot
Fell out the car saying: Me? Shoe? But Cinderella just don’t want that spot
Now I’m here today and I still can’t make sense of what went wrong
Just an ache in my heart, a slice thru my soul, and another year that you’re gone