Fire works (rough draft)
This shit a nightmare but it could be so sweet
Bet we not the only soldiers likely to defeat
They say our beginnings dragged us an hour ago
Watch what you say when you call me a hoe
But watch the one where he run
Amen… hey man I think our stories are done
You can’t win them all but truth is it was a better start at one
Oh and one, when I landed it was years before where it begun
I guess sometimes we have to watch what we say
Cause mother fucker it was October – I guess we should watch where we play
Cedric, remember when we had sex on your living room floor
She sent a burn so real (laughing in fetal) we knew no more
I would’ve just questioned and left the rest of them alone
I never bit him back either cause I learned I can’t lead a dawg home
I just wish I could choose which way that it go
Airing out so many other peoples demons
But I’m ahead now so I want you to know
I wish I could choose Lord for real
I wonder what life would be like if I wasn’t served when I steal
He prolly just wanted to know why I was so eager to go
No longer knocking down his doors cause Lord now I know
Your flatline lash back but the torture is that it just move so slow
I was just keeping it real and I wish you all didn’t just stop the show
It’s 86 degrees out and I have on the heat
Who knew being cold was so hard
But shit I’m just trying to land on my feet
Me and my teacher don’t even get along
Man they couldn’t be more wrong
I’m just waiting for a clock to realign
You have no clue how hard it is when you keep rewriting a line
So don’t judge exactly and don’t ask me where pink and blue go
I guess I considered them all
But when I shot it was down
So I even wondered if my real was buried below
You don’t have to die to talk when you already met him
She said I should be more careful in them hours (yeah it was then)
I just kept it at 100…
I just get so stuck on stupid like a god I can’t stand own me
I just needed my pire to know (like Dad cant you just do it for me)
I guess sometimes I just leap too fast
Threw my hands to the sky not knowing my past
I’m not blaming you but it feels like when the angels speak the curse means a hearse
And my words usually mean what they say
But fireworks for me been going off every day
So they say
The rich guys and apple blossom was more cool to my wonders
But only some of us can laugh after I pass thru my blunders
Up against a ghost
I’m so scared of it all cause Rakim the truth hurts the most
Dealing with a past that won’t let me live in today
My dad was Italian so when my car wouldn’t start he sat with me and said turn it anyway
One time I turned the key and it didn’t do shit
Man I jumped and ran so far (Nah I didn’t quit)
I guess sometimes you just better off alone
Cause when you been hit like I been hit
It’s usually more peaceful to roam
I guess we still patient
I’m sorry if I was disrespectful but I wondered if it was all real when you wrote back what the fuck
Glitching too much and bugs are haunting me…
Just having a hard time adjusting to a world that keeps me stuck