Missing you

(Over 3rd verse)

Embarrassed and confused
No matter which direction i choose
some way I always lose
Never felt so powerless
Or imagined I could ever like myself even less
They fill me with doubt
The message so confusing while they whisper about
Trying to find my clout
If I even have any
I didn’t just lose a few I lost many
Life for the cursed just get worse and worse
You’d think they’d have to have reason or merit
But nah I have to deal with a god who just let it
Staring in the mirror - gagging atleast every 5 of 1000 breaths
Dropped in a hell so low I can’t even comprehend the depths
Some people drink wine
While I just do a line
Punished for what?
By a hand I’m always cut
Who am I always suffering for
I used to scream and let go my steering wheel at 120 before
And that’s no lie when there isn’t even a reason why
Wasting time, chasing cars, nah they already won
Atheist? Nah I know god is real and that’s why I’m just done

and I swear I’ll never run again...

Link one: http://rapbattles.com/forum/showthre...ROUS-CREATIONS

Link two: http://rapbattles.com/forum/showthre...96711-Issue-46