This is a song that I did back in August 2017, it was suppose to be on an album I was working on but I ended up scrapping due to shitty vocal quality (was recording on a Blue Yeti before I switched over to XLR mics) and other issues that made it to much of a pain in the ass to fix, but this song came out pretty decent though so I kept it.
Lyrics
Verse 1
It's like every other night I sit up and think
if I could go back, roll back, time and bring
them days back to me, and just exactly
how would I do it and such
and would it change my luck?
I was a fool in school cuz it was never interesting
I would rather pay attention to hip hop and wrestling
fuck the lesson I'm guessing on any test and I'm messing
around in the back of the class room
all my work is - past due
I'm a fool because I give this all of my love
and don't nobody give a fuck
man I ask all the time, please
hit the play button, wont you say something?
yo tell me if I'm good even tell me if I suck
but fuck don't just sit there when I ask whats up
I give you bastards love
and you ignore me every motherfuckin chance that you get
I'm fuckin' sick of this shit and I just wanna end it quick
Verse 2
yo I've become a man
that I can't even stand
and I believe its planned
that I'm gonna burn when my time on earth is up
so what's the use of trying? I've been lying to my self
I'm declining in my health while denying I'm a shell
of a man that every-fucking-one knows I can be
but I can't see it I'm eating my way into an early grave
I'm a slave to my plate I'm to much of a pussy to address my fate
now let's investigate
I'm a mess I hate
to even look in the mirror cuz I'm living in fear
it's clear, I don't wanna be here - anymore
tell my momma don't cry cuz I ain't happy with this life
yo I think I'm depressed from never living it right
it's kinda hard to admit but I no longer give a shit
I've accepted my brain don't work the same as others
I'll be abnormal forever this is my life motherfuckers