Every one of these nights Ive been layin awake,
Pale faced,
barely aware of my blank stare,
or the stale taste,
words from the bottom of my heart create,
Im expected to see straight
through these aches,
examine all the mistakes,
I continued to make,
No longer ashamed,
I lost my pride,
Lost my mind,
All thats left is faith,
And though Im gripping tight,
Time keeps slipping by,
Shifting my focus,
But this fight feels hopeless,
And its not that my efforts are going unnoticed,
Even when achieving all of my goals,
The fact is I choked,
The fact is I Blew it,
The fact is im broken,
Embarassed and homesick,
but the butt of the joke is,
Im stuck alone on this road,
I just don't know what's wrong with me,
do I belong to these streets?
Then why do I feel complete at your feet?
Why in your absense am I so weak?
You're nothing less than a blessing from angels, like light from the sky,
For heavens sake what did God want for me?
But Im not crying out 'why',
Ive analyzed and applied,
Im trying so hard to find,
My way back to 'right by your side',
Im stuck in the dark,
I cant survive in this life,
So show me the light,
You said it yourself,
The truth cannot hide,
So spare me the act,
Save us some time,
Have you been losing your interest?
Refusing to fight?
Have you already moved on,
New settings in sight?
New aims and New chases?
New names and New faces?
No matter the case,
Its time that I face,
the results of my actions,
The catch to the chase.
Will I reap what I sow If I don't let go of the hope today?
Isn't there ANY way my worthless art and working hard will mean something,
Or am I too late to change?