Understand that as a man
i have a hard time handling my emotions,
whether its with devotion
or over the notion
that i may have to do somethin for myself.
I mean hell,
I've tried to help everybody surroundin me,
but the stress is drownin me
to the point of exhaustion.
I've exhausted my resources mentally
but physically
I've never been stronger,
so the longer i push
the stronger i feel
but less i think
about how im feeling.
My feelings are on the back burner
which is ironic
Because my back's burnin
carryin the world on my shoulders.
Now im only 28 but feel older
considering the fact I've lived my life
for everybody
except myself.
Like ive been reincarnated each time
i focus on a new friend or family.
So understand me
when i say i dont doubt my abilities
to help myself,
honestly my ability to help
is what has kept me going
even if its been through hell.
I'll never turn back after wat ive pushed through,
i just wonder if anybody would deny wat i could do
if they could only see wat i WOULD do
for love.