Originally Posted by
Atti
she inhales until the gut of her lungs
can taste the glass;
she drinks so deep
that she surfaces
in shallow waves on separate continents
just before collapsing into the shore
- desperate for affection.
You have a real talent for those first two lines. A strong introduction is almost necessary to be hook me. Great poems will sink into the reader and pull them into the rabbit hole, place them behind bars, or lift them to the sky. Whatever it be that person wants to do. I felt like I'm there in those two lines. That simple execution of tipping a glass upwards for a drink. That metaphor of the ocean. Her drinking consumes her like the rising tides...
she's going to die like this-
a destroyer.
Nice, short. To the point. She will die with that drink tilted upwards, and the poison sinking through her body. The destructive substance filtering in and changing her into the destroyer as well. Good tone setting as well.
her heart has consumed every thing
it's every tried to love
Typo on every which I assume meant to be 'ever'. Minor thing! Typos are easily fixed. May not be the most original of lines there has ever been. However, I liked your word choice of 'consumed'. It was very apt in this case. Her heart has consumed, and destroyed.
and she wasn't raised with a backbone
thick enough to shield her heart
from the ricochet
of two overactive shoulder blades
I get a 'heart on her sleeve' type of a vibe here. Not strong enough to shield her heart, or not cold enough to protect herself from the hurting others inflict upon her. Ricochet of two overactive shoulder blades... I'm really intrigued and in love with that phrase. I've read it as bumped shoulders, 'cold shoulder'... Not strong enough to deal with the pain when someone does that to her. The hurting is severe, and the loneliness; worse.
so she gives in to pity
since it's the only thing that lasts
- she sobs
so hard that her inhales
become the sea
and she it
And thus she gives into self pity. You always have a way with good transitions as I have seen so far from one stanza to the next. You've continued the story. She becomes her sea of sorrows and it becomes very real in my view of drinking alcohol to blanket the hurt that has been done. Inhales it so much it has take over her life.
each breath another chest
of sea
soaked in midnight
Chest. I read chest as the place where the heart is. Soaked in midnight, soaked in darkness. This serves as another good bridge over to our next stance coming.
she continues until
she's had so much to drink
off her own body of shame
she can't see the pain.
As we all do from time to time when things become too much. Blinded from the pain, perhaps passed out from too much or even blacked out. Also, numb.
she's going to die like this-
and no one remembers a drunk.
Sad thought of an ending, yet true in its own way. No one remembers a drunk, but they should. There is a sea of stories and pain worth taking a look at.
she's been writing
these suicide notes for years
and setting them adrift in the bottles she's emptied
inside herself
Clever wording and it feels so, so real. It feels like this topic is one that is important to you. Her suicide notes might not be written on a pad of paper, but they are written by her actions and the bottle is her pen.
a novel of a woman
and every love she's every lost.
Another 'ever' typo on the second 'every'. Unless it's intentional, which I suppose could be the case. Just getting typos out of the way first. Her pain could fill a novel, and the tales her drinking could tell as well. This is a unique way of going about this. I appreciate all of your imagery. I just wonder if 'every love she's ever lost' could be worded better. I wonder if there is a way to make this next line settle in with us even more. I wonder if you even needed this stanza. This could be cut and it would be better, or perhaps just bolstered by the words I don't know that need to be here.
she swallows hard
A gulp, literally. More of the drink poured down... Swallowing down her pain.
and looks into the sky-
These lines are simple, and I wondered if they could be changed. But you've already told such a story that these words have a weight to them. And, the pauses between each of these lines makes the weight more noticeable.
the ocean sleeps alone tonight.
Death? Change? I wonder... Is she the ocean, sleeping alone once more. Is she gone forever and now the tide has consumed her for good? I like that it's ambiguous. It means more.