Sit on the throne wardrums in the backround
I got to where im at alone wasnt gonna take no handouts
The things ive had to stand aganist i sure as hell didnt plan out
My dad wasnt there its all too familar cuz of the alcholic beer he count see clear
So i sit here cigarette in my ear been on probation over a year hangovers i made a career never a day i stay sober its weird..
Thought id be different then dad, no liquor stench just smiles of a Disciplined man
picture perfect existence fufilling my mission at hand
Photographs of my business trips ta japan
Vigilant would be the description picked from the most distant of my friends
Instead, im stuck with my head down from all the people i let down guess now i just gotta address my self doubts
Dont be so hard on myself? How!?
Well now, now that i mention it im blessed by my daughters image
I always thank god for givin, me her safe n sound as god intended if hes ok with that i dont have a problem with it
Laugh at everything so u prolly think im always kiddin learned lots of lessons the hard way
Jailtime behind bars way, people close to you so far away, gettin cards in the mail on holidays, use to be the wildcard now ya just dull n lame, one mistake n ur freedom threw it all away now you belong to the state confined to a room thats so small ya break
Make promises to yourself that youll follow the straight n narrow
While you daydream of the ultimate scenario
Release day no longer stuck in that uncomfortable apparel
Well i ranted a bunch enough for months of despair so...farewell for now n take care