I have posted this up on RIA. However, I never really bumped it for everyone to listen to.
This song is by FAR my most personal/real story-telling song. For this I shall decode the song for you just before you click play, So, for the sake of the song please open your eyes for this. I will wrap "Hide" tags around this incase you do not want to actually find out the true meaning to this. Up to you.
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Verse 1:
Now, this verse really hit me close. I was dating this girl "Meg" for three years. I was a dick. Too high on myself. Thinking I was the best thing to ever happen to her when in reality It was her that was the best thing to ever happen to me. I never shown her affection. I just tossed her out whenever I wanted and I was okay with that. Remember, I thought I was better than her. I wasn't. There was more sarcasm on my behalf within the relationship than any other fundamentals a normal relationship consisted of. Ever heard the expression "you don't know what you have until it's gone"? Yes, you guessed it. Three years of me being a complete dick and she ended it. I was devastated. Losing the one thing that you were so used to in your usual. Gone. I tried changing my ways to get her back, However, three years of experience in a relationship that made her cry almost every night was enough to force her to decline any thoughts of us ever getting back together. I got what I deserved. I can only blame myself and it still haunts me to this day.
Verse 2:
This verse was the hardest thing I've ever had to write about let alone think about. My Sister fell pregnant with her (at the time) third child. I was closer to my sister than many other sibling relationships I really know. Anyway, at the start of her pregnancy everything was just fine. No worries. Everything was normal. It was only till the late stages of the pregnancy things turned to the worse. She started losing blood. At first we automatically thought she had a mis-carriage but after being rushed into hospital and examinations from doctors it turned out she had a small tear that was caused by the pregnancy. The baby was still healthy, However, they went on to say if the wound did not heal quickly enough too much blood would be lost and so would the baby. She spent 3 months in hospital but every night she was losing more and more blood. The doctors gave her the decision to terminate the pregnancy therefore losing the baby but keeping her life. She refused. She kept fighting. She endured several blood transfusions. Almost losing her life. After a month of this persisting the baby was still born. The whole family was devastated. I will never forget her crying to me down the phone. I was helpless. Knowing there wasn't anything I could do or say to change anything that happened. The number one heart-breaking feeling.
R.I.P Llayla-Rose.
Verse 3:
Now, this verse is all about a girl I knew. She was so bright and innocent. Yet, she was so devoted to a guy that was nothing but bad news. She hated him but loved him at the same time. She always worried about him cheating and I wouldn't blame her. Everyone had theories about what he did on the weekend or more accurately every day of the week. He was always out selling drugs. He was too "street" for a job or any other role-model position. I remember once her friend was telling me he also used to beat her, How true were those allegations? I wasn't too sure but her friend had no reason to lie and I really wouldn't put it past him. She fell pregnant with his baby. She believed in a family so refused to leave him, regardless the messed up things he used to get himself into.
I do not know from this day where she is or whether she is still with him. However, I do know that when she gave birth he was never around.
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Originally Posted by ChosisDaKid
