Fool In The Rain
leaning over this bridge, my hard days have finally chased me
I feel the weight of this world.. and every girl who's ever hated me
my mind is overblown and I figured this would be the best way
Ive never loved in my life, just been lost as a sex slave
I look down to see the ocean below, and its as beautiful as ever
Even with forecast thunder showers as part of today's weather
The heavy winds shift me slightly.. pushing and pulling me out
I try to think of reasons why.. why shouldn't I just jump down..?
My existence agitates me, and Im just as angry at myself
If I wouldn't have... or maybe if I... then I wouldn't be by myself
This angel on my shoulder.. how long will you pursue me..?
And the dark villain around my neck praises my hatred loosely
The shredded skin torn from my wrists displays my repaired veins
A tear creeps down my face.. as if to keep from seeing my pain
Am I good to go now? My grip can barely hold steady
Ive prayed to be forgiven by the women who should know already
How sorry I am, how much of a bastard exists with in me
why I do the things I do.. and hurt them consequently
Another rain drop lands on my hand, for a second this was peace..
The dark blanketed sky casts a shadow over my unusual beliefs
That there I was with my own destruction hanging over the sea
Closing my eyes felt like a waste of this moment
The wind danced around me so it was hard to keep them open
I thouht one final regret, that I broke her heart and made her hate me
Because she could have been the one.. the one who could have saved me
Ok.. now Im ready, I think this is the write time and place
any more thinking would be too much, and I dont have time to waste
I extend my leg out, as if to walk a plank and hope for ground
I loosen my grip on the wall of the bridge and start to look down
The sweat from my palms leave a final mark along the cold metal
Beads of water drip from my chin and flow in the air like rose pedals
I take a deep breath then push off.. I feel it all happening
as I felt myself float, I could feel my angel trying to pull me back in
Her long hair drips the salt water, a storm formed above us
The strong winds forced against her skin.. pushed away from her lover
I look away with out a care.. I dont even stare into her eyes
She follows me onto the abyss because she couldn't say her goodbye
The demon hangs on as tight as ever, gripping what article he can
The angel wispers that she'll never leave me and grips tighter on my hand
The ride is amazing, Im free falling as the wind guides me
leaving behind a parked car by the bridge on a rainy day behind me
I feel it coming, the end seems to be my best lesson
I maintain my bearing till the final moment.. refusing to miss a second
This is my legacy, the best of me flows away with each thought
a smile on my face to hide the teary feeling of being distraught
And I hit the surface.. disappointing by the lack of feeling
disjointed.. everything goes black and misleading
Im not as at peace as I ones foretold myself and it irks me
Im left thirsty, worthless and alone.. this life has cursed me
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