i had a lot of stuff going on and i wrote this for myself but figured i would share it.
I am my greatest foe
Proved it when I suffocated our hopes
subconsciously laughed as they struggled then hung from a rope
With my own to hands grabbed our love by the throat
Until at last under my grasp it gasp toppled and broke
gathered our years together and poisoned them’n turned my back as they choked
every moment of happiness I shredded into ribbons left bludgeoned’n soaked
asphyxiated your dreams denied our love insulin with all my pride in ignorance
half and quartered your trust just to get rid of it..and it went..god damn my insolence
the future I neutered tutored by years of neglect and abuse
replaced by a newer suitor face to face but I aint accepting the truth
turned up bottle each pill a small ray of sunshine
flooded my body with light until I glow brighter than the sunrise
could vomit a solar flare but swallow the glare with all of my dumb pride
it hurt worse when all of my thoughts burst then reversed in my mind
I should have gave of love CPR then it wouldn’t be so hard
Find the happiness I tore from the start realign and connect each part
Call poison control and pull our years together back down from the rope
Make eye to eye contact when you spoke and swear through tears to reconcile our hope
Removed my heart put it in a box
covered it with chains and weighed the pack with rocks
flew over the ocean of your life and dropped it from the cockpit, didn’t look back or stop
how can it be over if im lost in you, listen it's the truth
if you say our love is broke it can’t be fixed…where’s the proof.
We don’t need a mechanic to plan it we can rewire ourselves
Can’t you see it’s a new chance still packaged take it down off the shelf
We just need to put it together, together…yes I can see you are tired
This won’t work out by it’s self please read “Some assembly required”
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