Fear is held, and it tells dominant
Abscence of self confidence in prominent
A living hell, cant anyone strip away this spell
Sick of observing chicks, wonder if imma tip her scale
Mission failed, not suprised, im asking why...
...Only time will tell.
In instant pale minutes, im obsessed with self image
I got a lot of problems, the list is endless
LEARNED to stay in stealth, CONCERNED about my health
BURNED up all my wealth, TURNED away the hand thats delt
I YEARNED for something else.
Uncertainty reoccuringly drastically burdens me
Wanna give my self plastic surgery and turn this white tee burgandy
What do i believe? Do i belong in grief?
Can someone please explain what the fuck it wrong with me?
Resistance to this perception, my existence comes into question
Nothing seems to lessen the depression reflected by my own reflection
I must confess, the stress eats deep into my chest
Im sure theres nothing left, seems hopeless but i cant lose focus...
..on myself fuck the rest
All is forsaken, would it be a mistake to pop medication?
Anything to stop the problems im facing
Embracing no one, im behind enemy lines inside my mind
Im a soldier though, but how could i overthrow my own thrown and regain whats mine
Only a matter of time until i do something stupid
Wanna catch a dart in the heart from cupid, its useless
These deserted dreams beggining are lucid, tellin me life is worth it...
..then prove it
Im fighting to smile but behind it im hiding
The pain never subsiding, all these thoughts r colliding
Im jus chillin trying to conceal all these feelings, without tearing
Better off dissapearing, my head needs clearing