Alright, a little background..
I struggled with some depression a little while back and at one point, I hit bottom. I attempted suicide and lived to tell about it. OD on heart pills, pain meds, ADHD medicines, Anxiety and Depression meds, and thyroid medicine. Overall about 90+ pills were counted out and consumed. Luckily, Im here.
After release from the hospital, I found out my girlfriend at the time had cheated on me while I was in the hospital for 15 days. I decided to jot a few lines down about what happened. Here it is!
I woke up that mornin, not a care in the world
Didn't think about tomorrow, didnt consider my girl
Didnt consider all the thoughts of all those around, see
Because the truth is that the world wouldn't change without me
Yeah I got friends, close but not close enough
To be considered, only one of the buds
And my family was pissed, I bet they still are
Always keepin an eye on me wherever my car
And wherever I go, I see someone that I would miss
I see that little girl I wouldn't have, I dont wanna miss the kids
Or maybe miss the kiss, that I could have had
And I most likely will, If I dont kick my own ass
You see, the world seems to stop when I think about this shit
All the pain and some suffering to make it on the list
Of those you think are crazy, just havin rough times
Not necessarily physical, but always in mind
And you judge and call me names like unstable and shit
The truth is you couldnt handle what I have been through bitch
I ain't gonna pick the world up and I aint gon' drop it on no heads
Im gonna leave it alone and say you'll miss me when Im dead
And say you'll miss me when Im dead, It's my final breath
Hold the mic straight out and watch it fall onto my chest
Then scream til the air in my lungs will dissolve
And suddenly the world and all its problems will be resolved
Anyway thats what I thought, But thats not the way it goes
That was a life I was gonna make for myself but not the life I chose
I was driven by a pain, so deep inside of me
And literally so miniscule that a microscope couldnt see
But this pain, a still pain that's been nagging me to death
Took me by the reigns and led me to my dying breath
The problem people have is that they just too stuck up
"It was just too early on", I said Bitch shut the fuck up!
I aint messin with you no more, you are dead to me
And I hope your body rots so my rats can finally eat
You actually think I trusted you? Bitch I knew that you would cheat
Drag you into my recycle bin, Right-click-delete.
There are a few parts I really dont like but I dont have the energy to change it at this point. I know its not the best, I have better but Im not willing to share anything else at this point
And I know not everything flows perfect but I was just startin my MCin at this point.
I'd like to hear yall's opins.
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