My eyes look so red as i approach the bed
And sweep off a pile clothes i havent folded yet
I lay down and drift away with every stroke of breath
A dark presence in the room brings me close to death
Cant believe i'm having second thoughts
I thought i had no regrets
A restless sleep interrupted by a cold broken sweat
The room looks so black
Then the shadows collapsed
Fear suddenly appeared, the room started to spin
My face frozen in an expression that was far from a grin
Started praying to the lord, asked to pardon my sins:
Wait! Father, please exercise your patience
At least allow for us to talk and hold a conversation
I apologize for all my lies i'm losing concentration
Caught up being selfish and haunted by hesitation
I just thought i'd have a clear conscience when i reached my destination
I guess for a christian i'm a poor impersonation
Cursed by satan i'm still workin and waitin
Its not worth the complainin it could be a worse situation
But...i love my place
I love my fam
But i'm scared to let em know just what i am
So all of my confessions come with some discretion
Caught up in a mess when i shoulda learned my lesson
I really want to see it all i mean it this time
Plus i got a lot of loved ones i cant leave em behind
So let me stay to see another day
Open my eyes and take these shadows away
Lingering images of heaven flash as i wake
And i wonder if i woulda been admitted thru the gates
But i posess no insight to the troubles i may face
At a later date further on down the way thru fate
But i'm ready for anything
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