Fountain of Youth
By Jonathon
*this may be a little personal - so; read and enjoy*
Fatherless; the stork flew me to step
dad's never saw me as the 'son' type.
I lie - not on beds, but just to get by;
tears leave streets on my paved face.
Words thrown at rock-like speeds -
trying to break bones & shatter souls;
yet it's my mothers soul I try to kill,
I'm just a monster arguing with elders.
My ex never went through the X & O's,
she'd rather see me with nothing
less than holes...
water trickles down, like years of tears:
Reduce me to happiness; please!
I've never reached that low point in life,
every smile is scripted;
I'm a walking book with a damaged cover.
It seems as if I'm losing every battle
in this war of life; I'm wounded...
Hurt, so I swallow candy for pain -
inhale Satan’s white smoke;
a rotten cigarette.
Tokens of money are low; so I make
a half-time substitution with bottle caps.
puddles form until I overflow:
I'm an accident - not meant to be?
Like a broken LifeStyle,
Trojan would've saved me...
Disease infected; I'm lazy & worthless,
flames rise to the occasion upon the occasions...
Call me ole' faithful - I'm sure to explode
because the doctors claim that I'm bi at the poles.
Caution: Wet Floor!
remove it; change it - & clean it.Fountain of youth? Or puddle of memories -
my family detaches me; I'm negative energy.
I understand; as the underdog, I stand under
it all - but I'm tired of words crashing like thunder.
I want to be a light, not lightning in life -
grow up, be successful & find me a wife...
When the timing is right; I know it'll get better -
but through all these hard times; my skin's like leather.
I'm now tough - as a child... Yet I'm already grown
I'm a teenager with a 40 year olds value to what I own.
Drama is left in the past - I want this year to last
I'm ready for change; so change me or give me a mask!
I've been to hell and stuff; cut me some slack -
your burden is getting heavy; so get off my back.
Release all my pain - stimulating my brain;
so I'm no longer confused; a little more sane...
its time for a new fountain...
Words won't affect my future -
drugs can't tell me when to do em'...
Parents will always stress me,
yet I know I can get through it...
In this cold case with a young mind,
I've found my own suture,
& that’s a new beginning - a new me.
Mother nature’s newest make-over;
so watch my old body while I take over...
In later years, I'm found singing Happy Birthday to myself;
with a happier face - less stress & my life in a better place.
I don't need people; I don't need anything other than,
me, myself, & I.
The new, 3 most dependable people I've just met.