His cast Iron hands seem
to weigh down my frail soul.
I can smell the strong stench of
an alcoholic beverage as the sweet
nothings reach my auricle.
.
Whispering how much I remind him
of the love he once denoucned
upon arrival of incest and adultery
.
.
I think it's casual. The love he
shares with me and the hate
I don't declare to him. When he
speaks with his eyes instead of his
mouth. Listens with his tounge instead
of his ears and thinks with that "second
head of his."
.
.
With the inability to stand up for myself,
I'm forced to lie down. While he performs
more traumatizing acts of fatherhood.
A revoltingly gross expletive.
.
.
Those cast iron hands now seem robotic in
repeatitive movement from thigh to torso.
He exuberantly compliments my growth.
I feel the filth between his nails gripping
my soul, as he caresses my heart with
memories of him holding mother.
.
.
He act's as if there is no sacred place.
.
Where mother and I sit and discuss.
Where I see her smiling down at me.
Laughing at him and even shedding,
a few tears once every blue moon.
Placing that one heart shaped leaf
upon my lap, while I sit under her
favorite tree. Wishing I were there
with her.
Instead i'm stuck smoldering
feelings of confusion, that
arise as quick as his errection
did his first time.
.
.
Penalized for my exterior beauty
by his inner beast. To young
to see the damage but feeling
the pain eating away 'with me'.
.
The years, months, and days.
I've suffered from his sexual "chevy".
Fearing the sound of his tires tearing
asphalt, as he "approach's my driveway".
.
.
His eyes yelling out these harsh feelings
.
again ready to
.
Listen with his tounge instead
of his ears, thinking with that "second
head of his."
.
.
He act's as if there is no sacred place.
.
Where mother and I sit and discuss.
Where I see her smiling down at me.
Laughing at him and even shedding,
a few tears once every blue moon.
Placing that one heart shaped leaf
upon my lap, while I sit under her
favorite tree. Wishing I were there
with her.
'Wish I May'
Written By: Ntalek
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