An Actors Dairy
My vision mottles, I’m seeing blue stars, forcing a groan
A cough follows, should be checked into a nursing home
I'm dodging through a labyrinth of rocks and snakes
I'm 2 days off the spirits, now I’ve got the shakes
Another 6am start, heartache and hard labour
It's a long road to the top, I’d always thought I’d start major
Acting now for peanuts, doubling as a techie
In a company with speed sluts, now I’m humble and ready
Plus this twisted addiction has fought my stature
The rapture, liquid rush, now my thoughts are fractured
A recovering alcoholic with stars in his eyes
Swift writer in the spotlight with bars on the rise
Running with this play, watch the plot as it lasts
Life's always looking better through the bottom of glass
I've found my Cinderella, and yeah i planned it right
I want to reach for her, but my hands are tied
I'm no Prince Charming, just a rat in a cage
Toxic blood, over stressed and cracking with rage
Hell, I’m pushing anaemic, even my hairs thinning
Seeing happy fella’s and chasing after their women
This state impairs wisdom, maybe I should stop, right?
But despite all this shit, I’m happy in the spotlight
Good to be back RB.