I wouldn't change my wealth or belongings
I wouldn't satisfy my health or my longings
I'd stop believing my parent's divorce was scorching my name
And I would stop sub-consciously apportioning blame
& I'd realize that their love wasn't rejected this long
It just so happened that the connection was gone
I wouldn't change my fame & my fortune
or kick my mom in the stomach till she made an abortion
& I wouldn't invent the computer
or catch a serial killer & resent he's a shooter
I wouldn't interfere with the world's workings
Be more business-like or hang out where there's girls lurking
I'd go back & relive this gimmick, my childhood years
Till I'd have enough memories to smile for years
So I could go wild & cheer that I made it worth living
And take the hate in my heart and make it forgiving
The truth stays hidden, under the cover of cheer
Darkness is forbidden although I've discovered its here
But that's all over now and that fallacy's over
Inebriated with stupidity, but now reality's sober
My luck can't change, its too late for four leaf clovers
But goddamn how I wish it could.