a verse versus bruk...
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Wish, if I could solve words... and dissolve hurts
I would grip my hands around the dirty earth
feel the nature of my state, undercompensate....shape a ball's worth
let it drop back down to the ground, sigh without a sound
wonder what I hate now, what I love and what I fear
loath myself for not loving what is near.. never sure where I found...
this clear cold hold on my soul....of emptiness
silence is a pool where I drown
and now the bold fold against the toll....and I envy death
I'm terrified looking into her eyes
face the why of the lies
devastated and shocked at how could have I
dropped her trust
take a deep breath of a ragged gust....trails out weakly
slumping my shoulders hump.....I dig graves sweetly
sometimes I know I love her too much...
for my own sake, and that's insane....meekly,
I slow swallow my throat's lump and jump
from my mind's plain fate
to imaginary planescapes
attempt to explicate this device
shovel cuts earth crusted in a layer ice
and so If I must deconstruct the hottest goddess
eyes of fashion, dripped in passion
dream a dream to touch her bodice
not for the taking or the asking
why does everything got to be so tragic?
Iconoclastic... we just reach for the spot
take hold and then tighten the strings on our wedding knot
forgive me for all of those forgivemenots...
and what I thought about being a little braver
even knowing love for the goddess
could have maybe saved her
I lay down in earth and taste the smooth dirt
bask as a saviour in my own work
and then I savour