I met Carrie almost two years ago. In that time we've grown to realize we are truly meant for each other. However, things have been slightly different lately... different.... in a bad way.....
So.....
... Lately my minds racing, contemplating, resorted to praying
Trying to get my minds eye to predict what the doctor's saying
But the diety betrayed me, vision hazy, I hate this...
...when the Doc entered we both sat victim to somber faces
Constantly turning pages, eyes twitching to cold stares at best
And at the paramount of my stress, his brow showed of hoplessness
"You have options" he mutters intermittent with stutters
While my heart drops to the gutter as it starts, stops, and sputters
The same fate as my mother... we can delay but not stop it
Take the sum of my profits invested into avoiding a coffin
Its not often tears run, but this vision, can make a fear flood
Its near done, health fading, for getting organs, she's the last one
Figures she's be gone, in the first trimester of having my son...........
Funeral for Carrie Ann Todd: Sunday July, 17th
4:14 PM
Why? Thats all I ask.......
Its not fair, why'd they take her? We were the perfect pair
Now her amber hair is eclipsed by a deathly stare
And when I rose to view her, I knew I'd lose it
I refused to see those eyes, even with that perfect blue tint
She was perfect, "We'll be together forever" is what she's tellin me
In the back of my mind in the melody in the soundtrack of memories
I fall to my knees, nightly, wanting to know what could have been
When then... I lost my fear of what'd it'd take to meet again
We'll be together....
...again
Awake tonight I lay, tracing the indentation
of where nightly, you and I would embrace and lay in
I'm hating the fact you're not here, and no longer appear
When my thoughts blur from beer, inhibitions disappear
Its drawing near, my time to slaughter the hurt
When my thoughts sincere, utter... the body's mostly water
I want her.. to see her.. to hold her.. and at that thought...
I pack up, head out, and look out over the dock
With cement socks...
...."I love you!!!!!!!!! I can't nor will I ever hide it!!!!!!!!
I live by the sword.... time to die by it........
RIP - Ryan James Christensen
---They are together at last---