This is a word not so easily said
I write this sitting with a gun to my head
looking back at everything everyone told me
I hate you all cause now i can see
Seeing all your lies, and all my cries
Waiting for the sun to shine thru my skies
I look at how many times you told me to look
I glance at your lives, fairy tales from a book
The real world world is a bit more complicated
I've been sized up, and I've been contemplated
Nothing in the world right now can keep me here
No one will ever make me shed another tear
So sick of crying, because inside, im dying
Working so hard to stay, I'm sick of trying
Im ready to go on paper I hope my blood splatters
I hope your dreams all break and shatter
Discriminate against cause the way my mind goes
All cause you don't know my mind has opposite flows
I flow all of this from my mouth to pen so easily
The one feeling everyone neglects to look and see
Aound everyone of you, I don't know how to act
So I show you who Im not, holding emotions back
To My True Angels
Im so sorry that it has all ended like this
To all of you I give a single hug and a kiss
None of you need to worry about where Im goin'
Its the right place, that's all you need be knowin'
It hurts cause i miss you all so much already
But now i hold this gun ever so steadily
Though I cut my life short, Thank You
For letting me be me, and letting me be true
Thank You for picking me up every time I fall
You've been there for me, through it all
Thanks for gettin' me up to hold my hand
Just to show me how to walk across the land
When Im gone, look at the sky when its blue
Think & remember or memories, so many but too few
A Last Word
Having said my sorries to all of those who care
In my eyes I know theres a pain, but I cant dare
I can't let anyone help me get up this time
'Cause I want to suffer this suicidal crime
Writting this, I know theres tears to be cried
Its been said, but its not so easy to say goodbye
I want to stay, but my goodbyes have been said
Now I'm gonna pull the trigger, so close to my head