Toy Soldiers

Toy Soldiers
https://youtu.be/LvdLovAaYzM

(Over lyrics)
I didn’t deceive you, every thing I told you was true
But in the end I was just still lying to myself
I can’t remember if I warned you about my mental health
I wish it didn’t end this way
I was just hoping you’d stay
But I know you were worth more then someone like me
So I left first - - - hypothetically
After I remembered the moment and couldn’t make sense of the numbers left
I ran straight to you, my only regret
I wish I tried harder, I wish I believed in someone like you for someone like me more
And looking back to 20/20 I don’t understand what’s war
Or how to just shut that door

C:

(Over lyrics)
Glimpses just switching while I’m glancing thru window panes
Helpless on the side lines in the moments I wait to be sane
I never asked for this to happen
Just had hope even back then
But shadows are the world I know
Screaming and crying driving at 120mph letting go
Why?
I don’t even know
Life and it’s path has never been much a friend to me
Silently spoken so I was blind in a world I was just pretending to see
Or could I... could it?
Just wondering what could this be...

I tried, I keep trying

“It replaces all... all the pain”

Why so much pain!

C:

(Over guitar solo)
And I can’t stop thinking, Im used to my mind just spinning
Only my meds slow it down so now I’m processing it all trying to find the lesson in winning
Wondering how is it possible I am the one that’s left then
Just trying to figure out of it all - what is the lesson?

(Over lyrics)
And my soul is just left hollow
Hollow but I’m still in here
And life just lost another year
At first I might’ve ran
I ran
But I ran back to face every fear