For Daddy

When I was a baby they always said I was a daddy’s girl
You taught me possibilities are as big as the world
No ones ever perfect...
It’s like we grew up together from where our family part
Always flying so high like an eagle, I don’t know where to start
From teaching me to ride a bike to 3 years of drivers ed
Playing pool every weekend on visitation or crafting flowers instead
Marriage 1 to marriage 2 to might’ve been 3 that almost killed you
But where we are alike, we just need a best friend and trust been over due
Mom says you always seem to land on your feet so I never really saw you fall
You lead by example to always give each venture your all
I flash back to visions of you next to my hospital bed
I never in my life once considered you’d be the one sick instead
I just feel dead...
you have to get back up... you have no other choice
Cause every word of caution I ever heard, I heard from your voice
It’s not the end... just another dragon to slay
And there will never be another day that for you I won’t pray
It’s not mind over matter it’s called will and conviction
Maybe if you knew how much your loved it will weaken your condition
Matters are so insignificant to the moments that mean the most
I know and I get it... once you realize you’re only up against a ghost
And like... in each day which they all say we can choose
No one is really winning unless someone else lose
So like... what’s the war for?

I love you ❤️
Feel better soon!

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He sung “for baby” at my christening

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Let me find out it’s because he knew my phone would be back in 3 days I mother fucking swear...

Pac... do they believe in God too?

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I have to go back in 6 weeks... I know it’s impossible too

I have no clue what that side convo was about or where I had to go back to in 6 weeks… LOL IDFK

Just missing my dad today…

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Nah I really was considering nun… but I wanted a family and held that as a worst case scenario…

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It was in the plan though as a side plan or option. Now? In some type of way maybe but I doubt it and hope not like… I want what I want for once… you know?

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Hell yeah I’m trying to make some money… cause my old friend just posted a pic of her huge unground pool she just put in her huge back yard behind her huge house and 3 car garage… lol I fell FAR behind and in one day was an economic leader!!!! AND the other situation how we both at risk and how everyone gonna say we deserve a poor life?!??! Oh hell no!!!! Idk how but I have to… I just have to!!!!

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I can’t stand when I have to borrow money from my parents… especially Ice coffee money