Toy Soldier
Nah... It stayed on my mind like it was personally my fault
And I don’t know what crossed the line that made people sick but him getting stabbed wasn’t my fault
And if that’s how it is cause that’s how I lived... it’s the same verdict
Then don’t ask me shit cause it’s the same verdict
When I heard he died and didn’t make it, it was the first time I fell to my knees I was in so much pain
Then the phone rang, she told me, down to my knees crying again
And if the conscious to subsconscience wake me up again
I say it again
Why would you take that from me?
I guess your game more important then being there for me
And you don’t care, you don’t love me, believe I get it
Went around full circle I guess just to see the map I couldn’t get
So what? Then you just up and took my entire life away from me
Everything I ever lived and died for
While you just got mad at me more and just blame me
They call me weak cause I still respect, I have to cause it’s my culture
Original 6 and that’s not just my fortier
And all the while, while I’m looking at you pretend to be me
Telling my entire side of the story
But yet you still hate me and still can’t see
More then my advocate, you hate the same person you been
And when they set him up when they came seeking for me just cause of him
But I Called out shots for 7 hrs, how it play out we see
Cause it felt like I was punished just trying to see
It’s ok cause I don’t fear no more, I guess new world order will just settle the score
They’re kicking my ass, it feels like a genocide
So what i put the word in lights no reason for me to hide
That’s why?
That’s why they can do this to me?
Or is it how and why now I’ll never be free
And any question that you had you just should’ve asked
Now I’m the only one stuck in that after math
And I’m sniffing so much cocaine it literally leave me in pain
But I can finally sit still, think, and make sense of this brain
While you still acting like this shit just a game
All I know is you didn’t wait, you moved right on as they whisper to me
It never was your intention, never your intention it’d be me
As I ran to the church and went all in again and again
It was for my faith in god and not my first lost friend
So you don’t have to pretend
You’re cooler with the shooter and stuck with the play girl whore
Go ahead stay real and say who you want and prefer more
As I solemnly sit with a dead stare
Getting madder and madder every time I realize they don’t and never did care
Nah it’s just a joke what you ever care for
Only cause I have to - thats what and why I’m still here for?
And I’m glad you made a friend while you pretended to learn how to save me
You better hope to god you didn’t take me from my baby
Keep all the penny wishes
I just thought that with it all you still would’ve saved me
Shooting in the gym but nah only cAuse they said it couldn’t be me
Now you taking orders?
Or so cold you couldn’t care
Tell me... how did you feel the first time you heard the words of beware?
As they force disgusting faces, disgusting paces and blame illuminati
And joke cause in the dark they stole my body
They’re always gonna win no matter what - they think they can just be me
As I pray for death thinking science went too far when they saved me
As they all demand and bully and assume they know me more then me
As every twitch still reminds me I’ll never be free
