chorus:
mourn i will not, remember i will
the memories of my friend are forever instilled
mourn i will not, remember i will
the void left in my heart though will never be filled
mourn i will not, remember i will
untill i meet my grave, ya memory will never be killed
and though you gone from this world, know ya legacy sealed
cause you my dog for life, and still my dog in death for real
where do i start, do i begin
to explain how much it hurts for me to see ya lifes untimely end
tears streaming down my face just thinking of our past
always by my side, you even loved my shitty little raps
but this is the one song i wish you coulda heard
to know what you meant and how im pissed ya missing from this world
we were together everyday and all day
ever since i moved to those apartments back in the 4th grade
you was the younger cat that lived across the walkway
and we used to chill on the daily despite ya small age
now its only at ya grave, i come leaving flowers
thinking bout when we use to hang out at the park for hours
while our dogs were off the leash running far
we'd be laughin on the swings and jumping off the monkey bars
always sleeping at ya house, that was my second home
now its tough going to ya house knowing ya never home
knowing we'll never talk, never get to laugh and shit
never be 40 when we'd talk about our bratty kids
never just chill like we used to do
never party, or relax while we sat and sipped a brew
you no longer leaning on me, and i can't lean on you
now i feel so alone, man what the fuck am i supposed to do
chorus:
mourn i will not, remember i will
the memories of my friend are forever instilled
mourn i will not, remember i will
the void left in my heart though will never be filled
mourn i will not, remember i will
untill i meet my grave, ya memory will never be killed
and though you gone from this world, know ya legacy sealed
cause you my dog for life, and still my dog in death for real
id do anything to bring you back again
anything just to spend another moment with my closest friend
but i know that could never happen right
but everynight i lay and wonder what'll happen in my afterlife
could i see you there, it leaves me wishing
and although i never been, maybe ima need to be religious
just to give me hope, that i'll see you in the distance
eventhough ive never though heaven's very realistic
but whether i keep hopeing on the holy tip
or realize that the last time that i saw you was october sixth
all i know is this
neither cures the pain ive felt since the day our souls were no longer told to coexist
and a suicide, yo i can't imagine it
i know you didn't wanna die, to me it was an accident
you were drunk, i guess feeling all inadequate
and had a chance on the train, but she wasn't having it
so while me and john were in there with the girl
you was ni the living room with thoughts of leaving off this shitty world
a cry for attention, i believe was ya plans
but playing with ya life is something you don't get a second chance
and since we lived together, it makes it even harder
thinking all i coulda done then to have our present altered
what if i never left you, what if we were sober
or what if she had never called or even ddriven over
what if you stayed home, and never even lived with me
you'd still be alive, and now the fucking guilt is killing me
not to mention that i felt like a father figure
since you only had ya sisters and ya momma living wit ya
and i was there kinda watching over you
but i guess i failed, now i feel utterly responsible
im sorry doug
chorus:
mourn i will not, remember i will
the memories of my friend are forever instilled
mourn i will not, remember i will
the void left in my heart though will never be filled
mourn i will not, remember i will
untill i meet my grave, ya memory will never be killed
and though you gone from this world, know ya legacy sealed
cause you my dog for life, and still my dog in death for real
(fade out)
one time me and josh were talking about whats the most painful death, and we talked about drowning and burning and all kindsa painful shit, but now ive realized... the most painful death is the one thats not your own...... i miss you so much josh, i'll never forget you kid... you'll be in my heart forever
