Exterior Interior Conflict
Appearance is deceiving to others as i hide what i really feel inside
swallow the torment and cry as i drink down this burning sensation
tears release from my eyes embrace the warmth of the salt im tasting
the conflict im facin is subdued for now i can only expect it to arise
physical apparatus of my being appears to remain solid
outside spectators arnt aware of my rotting foundation
being consumed by the termites of self hatred
my emotional peaks raise up and fall down like gas hoppin hydaulics
finding methods to releave tension only delays the inevitable
meltdown of the heart temperatures rising with each and every breath
pain within my lungs on every inhale like swords severing my chest
feel the frustration pulse through my body as blood boils within my vessels
activity is non existent within the exterior of this decaying corpse
enter a new dimension as u stare into my eyes and look behind the pupils
experience the thoughts of self mutilation and know that you killed
what happiness remained within now my love grows coarse
i try to remain secure and keep control of my appearance
as i observe my self in shambles unable to fit the pieces together
i praise the lord when im in tears and im surrounded by rainy weather
so i can hide the emotional person i am and apear to not be delirious
face is numb giving no reflexes and reactions to what surrounds me
inner depts sitrring loudly as the countdown to my demise begins
i have reached apocolypse nothin left in the world to prevent the end
finally, perhaps now we can see how the world will react without me
