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You are my favorite especially on the underground shit
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My heart just broke right now… I can’t even speak
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I can’t grasp reality… all I want to do is vent and talk in circles
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He grosses me out if I ain’t been with him EVER no way in hell I’m gonna be now but he don’t get it either
https://youtu.be/wsNbzenHKSM?si=C5a67HzbP6jKluHs
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To listen to go to sleep… I wish I knew why my soul hurt so bad right now
To listen to go to sleep… I wish I knew why my soul hurt so bad right now
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He fixed me… I’m ok
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It is confusing
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He said it’s no fun when the rabbit have the gun and I laughed - so I’m the one that got it now? Lol
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I hope he does know I never had kt
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Sleep… got thru today barely!
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I do have a good man though
https://youtu.be/gBHUH-gkxm4?si=DMxN3ujmkks-L7cN
Good morning
For my step father
Father’s Day
I never took into consideration how much I care
But despite how hell bound I been you always been there
I regret the times I blamed the ones who were closest to me
I was confused and that’s just how insanity be
Thank you for never shutting me out
Even when I’m mad at the world, walk around and shout
To make my point clear…
I love you as my dad but only say that once a year
I know in my heart that you’ll always be here
I’ll do better cause you done best by me
Happy Father’s Day… you really are the glue to our small family
Love you!
I told the police it was him I would kill me but I didn’t know who or how ior nothing… I want to be able to pay my parents back all they done
Wait… its Father’s Day too u have to think of a gift for that… your bday shout out is in the lounge
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Only cause I can see touch and feel him… it’d be easier if we could too
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I want ME back and I know 50 know how to change walks and talks and can help me to get back to myself
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“Security… the bitch stole me”
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Making my family pictures look ugly? Them bitches so stupid
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Nobody but god gonna change or control my looks too
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They got money to close stores to jerk their own dicks… ask me how much money I got or have gotten since leaving GSK
https://youtu.be/jJDHPjfbk9s?si=V68Q1ad2xm2ueb4w
I was 16 my first slow mo and when Chris got murdered - if I was on death row can I go back? I hate not feeling like myself and trying to find me again
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Yo this now you see me now you don’t shit makes me SO effing mad… its your birthday make them stop and leave me and my body ALONE
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Nah I lost my phone… went down stairs came back up and it was right there on my bed… I do stuff like that and up and down the strairs all week like someone think it’s exercise or something. I’m tired of the disrespect and then refusing to leave me alone
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I get better then he just makes me sick again all over… I’m good
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Cutie walking up my parking lot though… there’s more fish u the sea when im ready to date again
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I hear and see you everywhere.., only you can make me smile like that lol
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Where’s Cera?
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To answer the question… I was so exhausted from the torture that when the devil came to collect me I jumped up ready to fly excited… he said wtf let go off my chains and skipped me lol true story
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That’s why I laughed so hard at the Italian furnace part in power… please don’t say 50 hate me too cause he can make me laugh like you too
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Not power raising kanan*
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I know kanan she a bitch - prolly would kill her own kid
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Pac… I want a black dress when I go and we back together and married cause I actually WAS your virgin
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You wear white
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They can’t take that so it’s all I hold on to
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In mb I realized you were there when I made the oath to God about my children
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I wear the ring for both of you
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But you trump all that - it really is all I live for
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Just don’t let people pretend to love me
When I wake up in the morning I’m confused about whether we getting along or not
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Pac… I’m tired
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I’m so fucking tired
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I don’t have anybody pac
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I called 4 people… nobody ever there for me
https://youtu.be/_2id3wSUFzU?si=KNoPJw15pgz4fkbL
Hold for when my toe shoes come in
Thy blocked my phone and internet from the site… I can’t even accesss page from mine or anyone in
U houses phone SO if someone wanna.make money with me and this site email me at clarella919@gmail.com
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Someone* shit not funny to me
All better…
I found it pac… I hope my sister and brother help me find the account and I knew you promised him too… Love you angel!!! I’m keeping it on the low until I know for facts
Fuck that… I OWN A GAD STATION!!!!! lol I think
Yes they are fucking with my cards again charging $175 for gas double charge at 7/11 4 cash apps I never made etc etc etc
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I’m not my father homie but I am his child
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Went to post it to prove it but can’t get into my account now
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This shit not funny or dismissive to me I’m fucking broke and have been for like a decade now… nobody wants your old creeper above the law ass
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Stop acting like you’re somebody to me
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AND LEAVE ME ALONE
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I want nothing to do with your invincible above the law ILLEGAL network
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I want ALLLL the money you stole from me over the years too
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And my mom paid for all the years she had to support me by herself
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You got psych in your pocket judges in your pocket idgaf who you are because you’re disgusting to me
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Neuro in your pocket
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The one that just said I believe her is in on it too
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Probably the sickest one
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They sent my account to collections and I don’t even owe a payment…
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I’m not scared of you bitch
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You can’t do this to me because I’m mentally ill I tired of you FUCKING WITH MY HEAD
Awww you’re mad I won’t stop for you? You sent my card to collections and I don’t even have a balance… it’s all good the pawn shop is open in the am
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I would NEVER go sober for people like you
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Manipulative feminine bitch
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I’ll pawn it I swear to God I will
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It’s all good I found the wine
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Why you want me to feel icky and uncomfortable in my own body though? Like when my ex bf forgot to get my meds for school for the morning
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Did you make him not get it?
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That’s what went wrong
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Step into reality creeper… you make me worse and I don’t like you
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CAN you please leave me the fuck alone
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I’m not going to kill myself I’m going to kill you
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I be the police let me too
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Why you want me sober for 3 days so bad for anyways I’ve been doing fine skipping 2-3 days for 3 weeks prior to what you did to me Saturday
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You just mad I won’t do it for you huh?
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27 years of torture… someone gonna talk
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They’re trying to blame middle Eastern people too like I’m stupid
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Guys I need a lawyer but can’t even file a police report… can someone help me? @Candy
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Open my FUCKING account NOW
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Why do I have to stop something I love to do without hurting anybody else including myself
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WHY?
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Fucking with my electronics and head make me sick
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NOW I’m dropping out of school too
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I’ll go back when my life is mine again and I’m not some blow up doll toy
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NOW IM BURNING IT ALL DOWN CHRIS
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You had him not get it on purpose didn’t you… and everyone think I’ll be happy with some old pruned up arrogant twisted prick… NEVER DAWG NEVER I don’t like old men and won’t be happy with one either
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I don’t care how much power or money you have… NEVER DAWG
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Not scared of the person outside tapping… let me guess I go outside open my own door for them and WHAT?!??!
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What you gonna do now rapist… I bet you it’s him that was raping me up and down the east coast too
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Get them out of my body too
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It’s all good… the last thing I want is marriage anyway
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Somebody gonna beat your ass when I pawn this ring too
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I assume it fitting since you won’t stop trying to break up my family too
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He’s been on my roof since they gang raped me… I think he did that too
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And then killed them… I felt the 3 pops
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I hope they give you the chair… cause that defrib was excruciating
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Ricoooooo
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Don’t ask me to testify
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Awww nobody wanna hurt the pruned up twisted freak
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You so old and priny they think you’re innocent and harmless… KERRY I WANT HIM IN A LINE UP I BET YOU ANYTHING I CAN PICK HIM OUT
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I’ve been mentally ill since I was 13 and can prove that… hate crime x3 it fucking better be
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Pac you don’t have to kill him I will EASY
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Even if that means jail type over my dead fucking body
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Why are you fucking with my head and electronics and accounts and stuff?
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Why are you paying people to hurt me?
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Please check my medical records at st Mary’s Waterbury and wake med Raleigh I can prove he’s a rapist without the fake psych reports too
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I don’t want your money too old ass desperate bitch
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How long you been creeping on me? How old was I when you became obsessed with me in a twisted way?
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You’re going down bitch…
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My dad in witsec mother fucker
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Can you arrest him now?
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Cause I couldn’t go to school with back to back attacks like that that’s why he cut off all my cards and cash app
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Awww you discipline a 46 year old
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Some creeper faggot pussy that can’t come out behind a curtain
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Arrest him and take me to the line up I swear
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You killed my fucking father
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Cause he found out what you did to me
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Idk how he does it… ask him
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You made a game out of my life and I had a great career that you stole from me too
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You paid 3 judges so I didn’t get disability too
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You’re having me drugged in hospitals for dirty urines and you’re sicker than Hannibal lecture
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Idc who’s outside not scared of you
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Why you trying to make me a drug addict so bad anyway?
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Got a text didn’t see where it was from cause by the time I looked it was gone type shit
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Not impressed or scared anymore
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Can I kill him and fix me once and for all for real?
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Why you drugging me and shit and lying to people I’m an addict… what’s the big deal about that anyway even if I was
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I mean I assume a lot of people who were human trafficked and still can’t get free would be too
go into their office
otherwise thers help cnter that give you a translator fro mental health section, and they do all paper work
I’ll go to a lawyers office so they see I can still function normal and not lying… I’m just scared that since the psychs purge files every 7 years that they’re out of statutes my first malpractice was in 2010… maybe 91
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I report it to the police with cuts and bruises and dna and they just don’t even check and throw me in psych
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My hometown police investigated but that’s the only one that did
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And I had it wrong so it’s going to be really hard to prove I think
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I still have an unpaid parking ticket from the night of the attack and there is no statutes in South Carolina on sex crimes so I MAY have a shot of getting us (mentally ill) justice
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I thought I was a vampire some how and that’s why I was bleeding black… wonder where that came from?!?????
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Some of them are sicker then we are…
https://youtu.be/dMMj9S1lv7E?si=Wgv0y-jzbg1RaQvU
Our anniversary is 6/30 I think
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Loved it too… death row… they were hard on me but kept me my best
https://youtu.be/nL6-YDM41VM?si=9v5vh8KOZS4C2URk
Don’t make me cry I’m already emotional
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I miss my dad so much… he’s the only one who knew how to fix me
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I’m a go on vacation tomorrow and finally wear that bikini from 3 years ago
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I need some healing time
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If I don’t eat it we all go down… I’ll take that too… FUCK YOU
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My mom technically
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Who made less than her… bitch make a thousand a week no car rent $400 and the it out lies she racked in my name for like $5k somewhere the fuck her money go… why my mom for to pay it?
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Dumb ass bitch and once again I can’t do shit about it
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I can’t stand spoiled privy bitches for real… even if they are black
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You see where we live right?
https://youtu.be/UZz7hy9AmJY?si=K_wwIgAKDtbtk_UJ
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I can’t even comprehend speaking to him right now
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I don’t want my daughter to be a soldier… I want her safe and happy
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I got accepted into the centre but u didn’t get a scholarship and the aaawrs were frozen and my parents couldn’t afford it
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Assets were frozen*
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I don’t want to dance anymore anyway since tripping in inpatient
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Honestly… it was the scariest movie I ever saw
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Now I know why
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Yeah I bought them toe shoes but it hurt too much to go up… I’m a practice though maybe
https://youtu.be/UZz7hy9AmJY?si
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I have a daughter not son
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Nah like I saw I just post that… I don’t like them pre stepping me… it keeps me in some hell
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How do I cash out… like runners Rick Ross ie book bag… do I ever get paid? Or was it all for the stories?
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All I ever do is feel stupid… I’m good… I’m used to it
https://youtu.be/NNd_ufPG3x4?si=vY8vjIsQ7WtMWi9N
Fuck it all pac.. idc I just don’t want to stop talking to you
Soldiers, that is what we are – who cares if they say we live our lives behind bars
Something unattainable can be obtained, for our seeds to be maintained
We give our lives too, and don’t judge a name of a man you never met
And in your heart, you feel the beat, a reminder to never forget
The double edged sword of master trickery – who can be him… You, me, or he?
To those who have fallen we tip our bottles in homage, a last piece of bread,
For an offering, a reminder on their grave stones instead.
We recognize eyes to distinguish our alibis
And we will tell lies if it confuse them with the truth
Tattooed and scarred - reminders of our troubled youth
We whisper in the whims of the night to each other
And no matter what - we stand brother to brother
We mastermind in dreams and send a glitter through the eye
While those un-afflicted sit back and judge us on why
Chained to a destiny with no way out but death
Loyalty sealed with confirmation of last breath
Adrenaline that runs so deep, sometimes for 24 hours
With appetites for destruction that slowly devours
In us, we never cower… true to thy selves we behold the ultimate power
The Vikings, they call it Valhalla, at the table where the Judaists break challah
It is a place where we are freed from persecution of who we are to be
Rewarded, cause in ourselves we stayed true… the ultimate test of loyalty.
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It’s hard being a soldier when they diss you for fighting like a boy
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They ran my brother out of state when I was 15 - he made damn sure he taught me how to fight first though
https://youtu.be/9LTH55BpU3o?si=UhMNPGeFIfmDy1_N
I can belly to this… it’s dancing with chains trying to convince a man or woman to break you free
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I love the dance just too insecure and shy right now
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That’s funny at the store I saw the Pontiac version of my old drop and then today my I saw identical skye to my old one
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I’m sad they’re not making standards anymore… I love dancing driving with the stick shit too
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I LOVE cars… new cars only though :o)
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My best friend was a boy when I was a baby and I grew up on match box with the plastic road maps or the garages
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Yes I could always dance to rap better then R&B go figure
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I used to LOVE the clubs down south when little Jon or equivalent come on too… like stomp dance
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The best party ever… I was on a date with this guy bj and we in the country and he tell me to turn down this dirt road and I got scared but past the driveway was all these abandon buildings and cars with rims and one of the funnest parties I ever been too… down south boys serious though… they bout it more than we are up north and make me nervous
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3kinfe with 50 and Ti got my license suspended for an entire year I got pulled speeding like 90 something - I get hype to it
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3 kings*
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It’s why I never fucked around down south… the laws too strict… I’m in court for the summons for speeding and I watched the judge send a kid to jail for 30 days cause he had a DIME BAG… when it was my turn I was like lawyer please - I didn’t think it was that serious but they suspended my shit and gave me a permit for a year
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To be honest it worked… I hardly speed by accident anymore though
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Yes me and my hell mate are officially over
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I’m sad but what ever
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Accusing me of posting shit when I’m in lake George with no wifi - I think people have cat phish accounts under me
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Lab right though… he makes me smile and my hell mate make me cry… I rather date a ghost and show him the respect too - cause I never knew he must’ve felt like I never did
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Pac and Jicera are sacred to me
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Sooo… one person by one poem… I have 13 days to pay off these credit cards pleaseeeeeeee
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I just want to support MYSELF again like I been doing since I was 16
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You don’t know how it feels and I hate taking money from my mom
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I swear to GOD I have no clue clue and finally get it like 15 years too late
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I understand why he’s been there and what he was trying to tell me
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So was my ghost really throwing bottles in someone’s studio after the attack? I had that dream
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I cited my work and posted videos saying as such… is 10% therapy free fair?
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Therapy fee*
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I rather write than do hair but I actually rather still do both
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I suck but I just need my ah hah moment and I’ll be good again
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Like order of operations my 5th time trying to pass algebra like ohhhhhh and I got an A (it was a prerequisite so I’m lucky it didn’t go against my gpa
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I’ve was remedial math since like 3rd grade me and numbers don’t mix
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I even fuck up counting money and where I spend it and that’s how they get and got me so much
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I was fine as cashier though… but my drawer was off a lot
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No more then a few dollars so my boss didn’t care he loved me and would hire me back during the summers I’d visit
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I’ve been back and forth between ct and nc since I was like 15
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I HATE THE SOUTH
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Probably cause I already got sent there when I was punished - but I loved my father TO DEATH… my dad really was cool as fuck and sometimes I wonder if I was the only one to realize and appreciate that
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We’d play poker with his friends once a month and he could even tell when I was bluffing or had a serious hand
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It’d be funny when he folded
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I had a straight flush once and my sister stood behind me and said holy shit and everyone folded I was SO mad lol
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Hold ‘em but I can’t play with the extra decks at the casino… Spanish 21 my favorite game
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If I have to entertain my self that’s easy but it does cost money
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As vain definition just popped up on my phone… hardly and what does it even matter if you feel good? Its not like I ever in my life put someone else down
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I know I’m just a little above average… how’s that vain?
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I dress in baggy sweats and no one knows I got a body too… how is that vain?
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FOH vain
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If you’re feeling insecure with me posting selfies than maybe you’re the one caught up in how people look not me
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Why do my selfies make you so mad for real though?
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And I can be ugly as fuck the same… one time I came out of mental and pulled the mirror down and SCREAMED
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I looked so ugly I didn’t even recognize myself so it goes both ways
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Believe me I know I’m ugly too
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Usually and only as needed if I can please get my natural flow back
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You bitches play too much acting like gods and I ain’t fucking with none of you
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Biggie… can I go back to being Mae instead of popping out air bags when I punch the dash… I rather be happy
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Just the corner LNFAO I think it’s why L don’t fuck with me either
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We good she stopped playing with my money
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It sets me off extra
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I THINK
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I have been getting decline emails so I should check… I assumed it be Apple but they just came thru so thanks good idea to check
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Bitch stole my social and birth registration
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I know her violent cousins baby dads by heart soo if she don’t stop
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I’ll just post his
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Maybe he can make her stop
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Heard he has his own business now too LOL
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Hey that’s his family not mine
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Only cause I stopped fighting back dawg… not scared of you either
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Don’t worry I’ll call her sister before I do some shit like that
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It’s probably why they won’t untie me
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I’m just like then stop fucking with me and we good
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Never in my life fought over a man and only found one worth it
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And he’s dead sooo - it’s the disrespect to ME you can keep the man
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I don’t like cheaters anyway
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I despise fighting but if you have to
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Just untie me first and keep me awake so it’s at least a fair fight
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Do you even know why the practice got started? TO HELP NOT PROMOTE and I’m not even trying to know more about being black than you
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Cause that kinda make you more white than me
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I’ll shut up and check my card tomorrow
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Nah I’m pretty sure my old white for ends were the orginal owners
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White friends*
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Nah I’m not one of those white girls that try to act black either
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Just cause I had a few boy friends… get for real
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I dated the rainbow but they only count the black ones
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I’ve always had a low tolerance for racism
They’re so selfish, like life is all about them… Dear Pac
Even though I know this letter will never reach you
I just wanted to let you know you’ve been on my mind…
Not because of who you became and what I feel is due
Just to let you know the comfort in the memories that I still find in you,
Sitting here reminiscing of the days I wish I could rewind
Like playing football in the rain, But…
The echoes of laughter then, they now drive me insane
It dangles like a noose suffocating my brain
C
I know, and I get it… cause I seen it all before
Now that everyone can see the majesty that I saw so easily saw
You couldn’t decipher truth from a whore
The last time I saw you the elevation thru exhilaration as I witnessed your hesitation
Then after the love that we made you said no more
It stabbed me with a pain deeper than the 8 swords my tarot predicted
And ever since then my world became kind of shifted…
I want you to know that I don’t blame you,
I know you were preparing me for a lie you knew we couldn’t get thru
C … Do you hear me crying?
I wasn’t too young to understand it when but then came the next loop to the bend
The one to pick me up from the fall couldn’t face the order too tall
And the one who was truly true became victim of how evil these streets can do
As I witnessed the sentence served of 22
What? Am I supposed to watch the unpredictable of now and how he gonna end up just like you
Or just deal with the real of the reality set forth in realization of my own true? (it was always you)
As we rise and we fall we have roads set forth to beat
As I sit here fingering the outline of my scars again humbling myself to the defeat
And as my own story unfolds, I wish I stuck up for us then just to warn you
But all I could do was cry and spit lies just to scorn you
I know now you did what was best for me, but the test couldn’t invest in the rest I’d see
__________________________
And on a personal…
I never made love ever again,
It was more like we was in Cesar’s war and I became that opposite whore just trapping a friend
I’m scared now that my ice has melted and I’m not sure where this leaves me,
Just figured out I’d reach out to the one that always felt it and was 3 steps before what I could see
And… I pray this letter reaches you in time, it feels like years left of my own sentence
Yet they never told me my own crime as they whisper all in due time
I didn’t come here to remind you of the pain that you caused when you left me too
More like I finally remember what I blacked out and how now even though it’s harder than ever…
I’m always admiring and praying for you – What’s love got to do with it?
But you still can’t see what we all do so plainly – put down your guns and just realize who’s true
And maybe then you’ll see what real love in form of agape can do.
I hope I can help snap you back too…. I’ll always love you.
Sincerely… Me, C
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Only I already knew I was crazy
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When I was shot I was 30 minutes a way in a split second… but after like is when I felt it the defrib… it’d go all black and then my ex would slice my throat and hold my mouth under the running tub faucet all black slice 2 or 3x… after I ran from New York to NC I saw that same tub in my apt and had no where else to go and knowing that it could happen… its ok sleep me… my answer the same - I was with god
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I’ll be patient
Only if you love this country too though
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When I was shot I was 30 minutes a way in a split second… but after like is when I felt it the defrib… it’d go all black and then my ex would slice my throat and hold my mouth under the running tub faucet all black slice 2 or 3x… after I ran from New York to NC I saw that same tub in my apt and had no where else to go and knowing that it could happen… its ok sleep me… my answer the same - I was with god
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It’s not going to work with anyone I just want to stay loyal to pac now that I know
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I had to walk by that tub every day… I’m not Rambo I’m just human and I really do need to know who did this to me and why
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I’m not new to this…. Tell them bitch… cause she wanted my peace and comfort like she didn’t already raise her own daughter have love and a huge family… she just wanted my peace and comfort now too she said it to me
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He accused me of sucking someone’s dick and I’m tired of trying to tell him he’s got the wrong bitch
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I’ll be patient
Only if you love this country too though
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Why did you spend your entire life trying to set me up and make me look stupid?
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Never not once that I was aware of or awake for
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So someone tapped my but a few times loaded up the ickiest most disgusting feeling into my left foot and I’ve icky twitching it back out for hours now
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I hate that it takes hours to sleep too
Well I only talked about 2 people - shouldn’t be that hard to figure out
https://youtu.be/Ubz1bTc3MGs?si=JvLKeL-mZyavkuN8
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I rather live one day and love it and own it
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Not desperate to be accepted into you either
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What’s ARG 2? How do I make money?!??! I don’t want someone else’s money held over my head I need my own and really get angled every which way I try since 2012
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Why you so desperate to be with me anyway?
i retired and went on government payments i get $600 a week.. its only $150 week cheaper then what i was on
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The parking ticket on my Skye in Myrtle Beach is the night they got away with it the first time too
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lol yeh you always crazy in a good way..
the 80% i just couldnt turn down a deal like that its good to hear usa health care is as good as australia up until i thought you had bad health care so thats nice..
originally i wanted the jobs i had but i was juggling too much anyways
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Cheap ugly sick socio morherfucker - he killed pac didn’t he
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Praying my dad made it in witsec
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We were all cracking up cause Ced made me drive a hoop d when I got sick and fired from ibm… he made the payments so he took the truck and the car I had we all just was laughing cause it’s so not me… but here you see me beat down to its me… my car now is breaking and I need to get my credit right so I can finance when I graduate
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Me? Shoe? Yeah ai’ight
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Tacky ass Volvo FOH
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I’m polite but not a punk
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Crabtree Toyota just like in Raleigh’s name… and I’m broke why?
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You got all this money to hurt me instead of helping me be my best FOH
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I don’t impress easy
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Come out from behind the curtain sick man
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He closed 4 liquor stores… you right I like coke when I have coke I don’t drink or smoke weed asshoke
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I don’t have to do anything when everyone leave me the fuck alone and stop fucking with my head… I’ve been mentally ill since I was 13 does somebody anybody think I’m faking?
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It really doesn’t take that much money to keep me happy but I want my own
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FOHHHHHHHHHH
My mom wants me to close an account cause she can’t see or have access to it FOHHHHH
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You want a child don’t you sick man?
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The police probably would give me permission to ice pick you if they knew what you did to me
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How he won’t let me out of this box
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Or be happy
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I don’t need a man I need my own money
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Do you know how hard it was to go to school shaking like that… I’m trying my best and can hardly handle that
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You played the FUCK OUT OF MY FATHER
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I haven’t even touched on those feelings yet
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You’re old man voice makes me lpuke literally shut up
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All that money you waste makes me want to puke even more
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Theirs kids that are hungry
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My mother lives in the ghetto
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Theirs people being raped right now cause of you all and your design
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I HAD HIM 3 fucking times on dna
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How much money do you waste covering up your sick fetishes
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I don’t care about Leoer hell if you’re hurting kids I will cut your fucking dick off
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Lepper hell*
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Alien bandaids guys… we will be ok
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I’ve seen about 7 directions of hell too
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Idk know what I’m a do yet
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It feels really gross when you’re body parts are falling off
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But aliens will put you in a bubble until your sewn back together
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They hate people like you too
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It was 3 pops so why you showed me the white boys that were castrated? I’m pretty sure my attackers were shot after you hired them cause that’s when I started hearing his disgusting voice
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I’ll callm down and stop
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I have every rite to know what’s going on too
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You played my family and everybody I even got close to
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You turned me into some freak of nature blow up doll… I know you a psych or at least that they were helping you making me sick
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I’ll never get better now and that’s exactly what you wanted a sick woman isn’t it
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I have 2 marks on my ankle… no clue where or how
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You better leave me hell mate out of this too
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Cause I remember saying when I was hyperventilating to the cop since I was a child
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Also asking if there is a torture recovery center
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Is that why you have everybody convinced I’m not crazy cause the extra crazy you put on me makes sense
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I deal with voices all day long… the medical ones and yours too… how does anybody get thru what you did to me since without being crazy
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He started working for you too I’m not stupid I know EXACTLY what happened in October now
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YOU LIE AND TURN EVERYONE AGAINST ME ON PURPOSE
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Why so I have no one but you? But I’m the desperate one right?
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Somebody make him shirt the fuck up
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Shut the fuck up*
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Any competent professional would know with my mental health that I wouldn’t make it thru this
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Even my gma hate you… ask my mom one Christmas she rolled bills in money like coke straws… when I FEEL BETTER AND PAC OR 50 IS HERE
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She died the same day she met my hell mate… so hell mate she trusting I’m finally safe now… am I?
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They’re going to win every time so if you won’t get them off me that’s what’s up and yes
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I can’t fight professionals
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What did you tell my family that they didn’t believe me or thought I deserved it too?
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My family leaving your family on the strength of them right on time drug tests too
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The guy in the city can watch us until
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The power of persuasion… its all hypno they ain’t vampires
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And if they are… no thank you
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I need to know what’s up with pac and Jicers I know it’s not him or them doing it
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Jicera*
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I’m proud I made it to school today despite shaking
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One more day I can do it
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I heard pac but then you faded out again
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Like that spider web and we all caught in it but all of us against one spider like what if we just pulled together and pull the web and trap the spider like that plant does
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He can’t have all of us fucked up… its the breed forcing me to share my body that’s making me sick
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When they stronger than me in my own body typing shit like it’s more theirs than mine… like when Kevin come around and I get so sick
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Guys idk about you but I’m going to a new family and I’m pretty sure being sober gets you extra points… are you coming?
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It was one of the best nights of my life… just sad my fave never came… do you know how to balance me again? Cause they did so much shit to me to hurt me I don’t know if I’ll ever be sane again
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I think they think I’m the wolf when I’m not
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And when they try to demand I be this is what you get… me sick
An omg ah hah moment… they said Melissa had the 22 but I didn’t believe it
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I had lil vicious Nila in my deck
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Nika*
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Tell my hell mate to stay on our side
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They tried to kill me and my husband to be
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WHY?
I have a strong feeling that it’s our turn and neither one of us have to be sick
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And I don’t want anything to do with people who treat us like that
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Idk you have to ask Aimee or L but I think that bitch was selling me too
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That entire family need to finally weed or leave
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My aunt did it too
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When Cahz said the pic didn’t look like me and when Anthony said oh she is pretty
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Why are they allowed to change my god given body?
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They did gross shit starting in 2000 with them pictures
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I just want to be safe, happy, and successful again. And I want justice… they lied on me, defiled me and my rep, gang raped me, and shot me too - why do they get away with it all. How did they manage that? And then they set up 50 too
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We were both doing so good… what happened that I went down and not myself again?
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Nothing changed though it’s not that so you saying even if I was on drugs it makes all that ok to do me? I think you’re the sick ones
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Because she knows my family is sober and set them up too
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Your worst mistake was coming back for me after 3 years… you would’ve got away with it. Gabe didn’t get sick until I came home from Vegas… did you do something to my dog too?
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I hate Nancy but they set her up too
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They set up 50 too…
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Who hated pac so much?
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It’s wasn’t puffy it wasn’t big
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It wasn’t sug… I feel in my heart it’s a female
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I guess you gonna have to ask Melissa and Bobbie Jo
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Why the fuck would you even want me dead for
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We’re stuck in the wrong “family”
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I’m trying pac… I can do this I just want to get better again too
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I feel like they were shooting at me and Fred pulled me down and saved my life and Hollins got hit instead… he was behind me
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When are me and my hell mate finally free cause we’re not the ones that did it - a lot of lost our dreams that night and I’m demanding them back
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When is it our turn?
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Nah I’m into minding my own business but someone hurting me and I can’t handle it or make it stop I’m a tell… especially crimes against humanity and kids
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I don’t like people in my body it’s gross and disrespectful I’m telling them to stop and they won’t
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And I don’t want anything to do with people who treat us like that
I was doing good we had close to 1k in savings got student of the month and I just went down again… idk how was hoping you do
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I can’t even count how many times I went down and tried to get back up - they win everytime and I’m trying to figure out how and why too
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My will isn’t there to fight that hard so it’s easy for them
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The didn’t just break me down they dissected me
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And they refuse to go away or stop… and their ruining my reputation somehow too
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Get that bitch the fuck away from me too…
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I was working again too
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I can’t do shit again
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It’s not a broken heart it’s being forced to a breed and family that makes me sick and not like myself
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My dog here with me helping me I’m ok
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I know they’re trying to help but it makes me sick when they do it too
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I can face it ask me to my face
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I only remembered cause enterprise called me to say they wrote off the rental… I hung up like why I ran out of gas
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Trying to get dressed it’s that hard again
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I have no privacy or secrets
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Why?
I almost died not even knowing my own life story. My Dr was Paul Fox - the same Dr of the Newtown Massacre. It was just straight horrow and the most horrible thing to have ever happened. I don’t know I hate it but I do know I opened my own doors somehow when they were hurting me too. I’m not even there but my body still is and honestly wonder if that was the case too. It terrorizes me every day that they will destroy my name and use me in hate too. I blame the drs!
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My parents trusted him too… it’d not their fault either and my father drank himself to death
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I was 13
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My first time in patient…
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Because it only happens on their demand somehow
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I want to remain anonymous unless it’s officials… I have proof
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I think he did it when he found out what they were doing to me and felt guilty
My ig got closed down it is now whoscaredcla910
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I hope that’s plenty of proof, my medical records have the rest… I have more pictures of being beat up if you need them too
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If I didn’t report it I got to go home
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But I’d be so hurt I need the hospital to check me
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I really have no clue what they tell everybody that they help them and not me
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Check the police reports too
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My family didn’t do this… PSYCH DID
My family didn’t do this… PSYCH DID
A ufo droid came to visit last night I was cracking up
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I’m ok… when I feel strong
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Not so much if not
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