A Disciple's Thread

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We are all above the law… it just depends who is paying to be honest - that’s what this song reminds me of

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He said if I went thru all that how or why I act like that… idk ask the fucking professionals

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They did it on purpose pac

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Happy next birthday…

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Thank you for showing me life after death now I’m not scared anymore

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They still drill or fuck with me or my body and my phone daily and even started with the sick shit again… they swear they teflon big

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I remember a lot now pac and im so sorry you had to witness what I didn’t know

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It’s hard for me to retain for facts Jicera my baby… but as much as they have covered up proves that too

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Did I disassociate myself when you guys left or did the psychs do it

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I know that’s my style… delete and move the fuck on but not when you it comes to you or my daughter - my family

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But maybe that’s where I learned it from

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My therapist said I must’ve disassociated myself and peed on my own bed… but was woman how up and down like that type stuff… tired of them do you guys have that piece where I wrote it’s hard to touch, pink, and I tried to tell my Drs but they say it’s impossible too?

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Hurts to touch*

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Had him 4x… I’ll never be at peace until I know who and how and that they’re dead and can’t hurt me or anyone else anymore to be honest - at least not someone that doesn’t deserve it

Where’s my to ready or Not I can’t find it in my files either… you always deleting shit

Song cry? That’s why the undercover thought I was ginger? Nah just did a favor for my old friend cause I never seen him shake before

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I love him to death and it will stay with me forever

Damn I still think the best is sleeping while driving or getting driven home… hey Angel yeah we live life like a video Jay

https://youtu.be/__dMsogizXs?si=DKRT73FO1wA8Lv9c

They’re scaring me 😭😭😭😭😭

Was first seat 3 dumpin? Glad to see him back but don’t ever disrespect your own country again (innocent lives were lost)

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Then again what if Bush did do it? He was after Hussein and Obama got bin Ladin in 3 weeks and then OUR helicopter went down - what if he was innocent?

Why we have no record sales pac and snoop?

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Why we have no record sales pac and snoop? CLA919 was Jay z, a disciple Nas and 50, and no nun 2? I’ll write more

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They fucking with my head and my phone

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Again… it’s not funny at all

https://youtu.be/WVbgJ_z7Y-4?si=3dtsYkEWc5D-yhZ6

https://youtu.be/TacBz08kTzA?si=o8-13_Usnpm_xoJD

Ohhh shit!!!! Loving being old today

https://youtu.be/otkm64AUCrk?si=D89UQ0cEK8tr9_Vn

I know now that Allah looked over me because of you and your family

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I remember the I love you fight

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I didn’t sleep with anyone until my 16th birthday… but I already forgot about you by then

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I refuse to be a convalescent

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Just writing and posting and trying to get “free” trapped in a culture that keeps me weak and oppressed

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And that’s against every fiber of my core being

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I’d say I miss you cause I see and feel you everywhere still

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They laugh that I’m not afraid to die and it’s cause I know you’re there

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And if you not let me know so I can be a little more cautious lol

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Why was my head shaved like that pac?

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It’s how I’d wear my bandanna to cover it

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I got split seconds back of us after I was shot

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They won’t even tell me I was shot type shit

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I said dying was easy… it was coming back to life that hurt so much - the defrib and realization of how everyone betrayed me

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Trying to stay strong for Jicera cause I know she feet first too… but that girl - nah jicera is half white

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There a girl at my school that’s half Italian and half black and she so pretty… I think of Cera almost everytime I see her

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Get the witches off of and out of me - they kicked my ass and rep enough

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How did they get that power over me to begin with?

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Back in therapy… day hospital another 8 week program smh

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I have to clean and get dressed ttyl

I remember telling that witch MC that I lost my virginity on vacation but thought I was lying

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She refuses to leave me alone and I dont know how to make her

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She acts like my life and God is all about her and she won’t let me get back to your or my daughter or let me stay myself

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You can tell me what it is straight up… I prefer to just rip off the band aid… I’m very good at balancing things out when people are straight up with me

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But I’m the worst assumer ever and already been thru enough

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I live and die for my family

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I actually see my father in her

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It’s the only pic I have pac… pls don’t let you be a prick

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I have a hard enough time with the medical I head voices on top of having to hear theirs too

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I don’t understand why they’re here still other then they tried to kill me with pills, sold me to strangers, used me, had me gang raped - then shot

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They fucking with my looks and my pictures and seem to have spiritually infected my entire family

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I never did them wrong a day in my life too

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I bet you because she rather kill me then to tell the truth about shit and things that she did

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She can’t face the reality of herself or admit fault

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I don’t know why the Feds are helping her and idc

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I just want everybody to stop FUCKING WITH MY HEAD AND TELL ME WHATS GOING ON

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They the ones repeating because they’re not getting the answer they want

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The only thing I stay the same on is pac and my family… let’s count how many times I’ve tried to re invent myself after hitting ground zero how many times now? Like 6?

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Moved from nc pharma to ct pharma - got sick failed
Got back up EA position in finance - got beat hurt my back failed
Real estate and side business - got sick failed
Porta potty customer service - got sick failed went back got sick and failed again
School - almost failed and hanging by a string

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Since the assault in Myrtle beach

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Just wanna live life and have fun God… I can’t do that without my own money

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It’s a miracle I even got back up again… after a while you lose your will and I’m so grateful for my hell mate who did pick me up again

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The physical magical torture stopped

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He stopped that

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I was taking like 8 ibuprofen a night… let me guess she was trying to make me take pain pills?

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Is that why?

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She love it up the ass… I don’t do it - is that why I was sodomized so much

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What happened to the inappropriate touching part?

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Pins in my eyes for years

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Face migraines every night - I’d sleep with ice packs on my face

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Just waiting for them bitches to finally just die to be honest and know better than to take that into my own hands… maybe her co defendant like puffy snitch on her… I haven’t heard or watched enough to even say… but she did sell me to my exes friend after I got my SUV

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Split seconds and putting 2 and 2 together after I got shot

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I’m the worst assumer but that’s all EVERYBODY leaves me with and I just want to know why

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Bitch when are you gonna get it? You can sell your soul but you can’t sell mine

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Get off me

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I haven’t watched and like that would be sooooooo fucked up

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When I was with my ex he took good care of me and even was the one to leave after doing me dirty… but at least he didn’t keep coming

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But yeah it was a nightmare being pushed around on my bed with them in leather

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I literally lost my God and couldn’t find him for weeks so I went to the witch website to ask for her and they made it worse

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Ask for help*

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She was covering up that she sold my free will to Amy

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And that was 04 soooooo like I said, she can sell her soul not to be caught but she can’t sell mine and I resent the fact that it’s been a decade and I still hear or feel like her

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Can you please put my body back to how you found it too?

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I’m starting to get a belly and them ugly handles

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Nah he on her side… I trust like only 5 people right now

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Someone in the woods outside smfh

She won’t leave me alone or get out of me and I rather die then to let her… BYE BITVH

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She swears this all about her… the human trafficking maybe

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Can someone please make them leave me alone so me and J can have fun?

https://youtu.be/14nHP-9Yve8?si=4BU3BlQj9b3rHOZB

I feel stupid responding other then it really hurts my heart puff like that too though

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That’s all I really want to say…

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I think Pac took Puff DOWNNNNNN

I’m in program now trying to kick this yay habit…

https://youtu.be/3CXnHE95JnE?si=Sgq0H7QOjeYOh-8K