You're the Man.... (NAS)

You’re Da Man!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSeEcHn7css

I was chilling in the crib one day
When 5 birds came and chased me away
I guess in a way, you can say
A lil birdy told me
That he was about to scold me
What I do? I was just keeping it real
Is it cause I realized in utter famine and thirst one will steal?
My neighbor couldn’t even give me a free glass of water
And of all that brought to me this new world order
A world that opened up and turned on me
Fuck what they in to, I wasn’t even trying to see
Ran out the door and was knocked down the stairs
Trying to keep cool on the block ignoring their stares
Then hell opened up and it turned into an inferno
Felt the heat penetrate my skin
To the point of desinigration
Turned the corner saw kids playing in the yard
So I gave up and said fuck it for them I am scarred
No sense of watching an innocent suffer, not given a chance
So look this white girl in the face and tell me it’s my last dance
Felt the smack, from my own father, an attack
And now, I am not even trying to make up for where I lack
Instead I turned around and said ok
If this is the way you wanna play
Instinct took over, I hardly had to think
I stared hard at the bitch recording me as I sipped my drink
Number one… thall shall not murder? … Ok
You really wanna play?
Off to the mall and around the block
I chose my weapon – hardly a glock
Drove to the scene
Yet somehow my heart still found a way to intervene
Eye to eye I fear no man
But what was said was so real, I began to understand
Looking back, all my memories flashed before me
Like that time dude slipped me a micky
It didn’t click until coming out of surgery that day
That when I woke I didn’t realized I was touched as I lay
Once a victim, the pattern is constant, I can name 3
3 motherfucking times I begged a motherfucker not to penetrate me
Trying hard to convince my body not to lock, it just makes it hurt more
So off to that other world my mind started to soar
I continued to look back on my life, my footprints in the sand
When I see my own I was carried? Now that shit I can’t fucking stand
Friends that I’d give my life for turned their backs and closed their doors
Laughing at the demons who picked me back up yet forgetting all yours
Shit got ill penning in my notebook
Codes that were written left me visibly shook
Abandoned by almost every one
I lived for nothing and then I was done

I was propositioned, I saw it my only way out
At this point I was a suicidal bitch without a doubt
Eventually, I learned how to deal with the real
My heart beats heavy some nights, just to remind me I still feel
I don’t know why I forgave my father yet again
But just when I was out, I heard the slaves cry --- so I jumped back in
Leave those who saved me?
Never, then what example or lesson would I be?
Now you wanna trick me?
Give orders out just to be a dick B?
My own brethren turn around and beat me?
All because this bitch wanna defeat me?
I tried to tell myself the humilitation of it all made me a better person
But feeling so fake and so weak, and still to get fucked over, that’s when it hurts then
But don’t they know… the reaper my best friend
I cloak up and ride just to make the offer with him
I ain’t afraid to lose my head to the sword
He even send me reminders, felt the roll, and what redemption my reward?

So I studied, stayed real, and conversated with ghosts and the best of them
Traced like over 1000 confessions, them begging me to justify them
I see it --- I see almost every angle
You no longer have me nor have that carrot to dangle
Pac said a flower grows in the concrete and showed me a pic
I even heard one grow in a dark room in a lyric by Kendrick
We never run in the city we come from
But I refuse to let these weak ass motherfuckers make me look dumb
Do you know my drills?
You think I let go just for the thrills?
I let go to remind them, any day, any time
And that isn’t just over my God given talent to rhyme
You can’t judge me for looking back to the times when I was most happy
Why would I betray the brotherhood that spawned me?
I want my position back
I think I’ve earned where I lack
Don’t get me wrong… I don’t have an ounce of hate in my heart
But don’t you dare question when, where, how, or why I called this war to start
And to my one, my burner in the bushes… I don’t know who what or where you are
But you’re MY God, and when I hit this shit out of the park for you I pray it go far.

This was super dope! Very creative bars.

Thanks again homie!!!

I read that 3... and after it all I remembered and it all just clicked. So when someones soul is walking before their mind catch up... I suggest you back the fuck up off them. In all the site been kind except a few. But I pray no one is going to get away with hurting me while blaming them too. The only thing I can think of is money. Them girls had NO reason to want to hurt me.

I thought I was exaggerating talking about something else - like my ex and etc

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Head burn off day running to the church in there mostly - cause you all seem to understand but pretend not to understand... why?

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Why are you on their side and not mine?

They're hurting and abusing me though... and forcing me to share my body with their sick spirits forcing me to kiss my hands like my body is half theirs. This isn't even my religion! NEVER would I forgive or side with a soul forcing me to even retardation to demand their way. Don't rape a bitch then.. EASY!!!

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It's NEVER been nice to me and I don't need you all to write... my skills are legit and I don't need you all to make me look and feel ugly either. Just fighting with a bunch of dumb ass bitches most of which I never even met it feels like,

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I don't fucking know... its YOUR culture you tell me!

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I can't get thru this if i cant be myself by myself! I know pire didn't do this to me so why am i even going thru it now too? Like I'm up and they take the opportunity to throw all their trash at me and run again like it's up to me to face their curse or decisions. Bitch I wouldn't even let you out even if they were whipping you - no disrespect. And like yeah... I'm fucking exhausted and trying to let go of the hate in my heart for them now too. Real shit... for real, for real... but it's them demanding my religion be theirs thats annoying me the most.

Nassau! Nas new shit ill as fuck... I'm feeling 40 side one of the most though

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Yeah my favorite quote Nas is "life... will it take me under? IDK?" I say that shit to myself all the time.

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I was born in Oceanside but raised in Baldwin until we moved to CT,

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IDK! still trying to figure out how to adequately write directing the tone it was written in. You can type the same thing can be read 2-5 different ways cause you can't tell the tone it was spoke in. It makes a difference like text I'm sure you might've experienced that.

This one…

Wanted to up this one too…

This one that first fire… I love writing about being crazy and what we go thru LOL