"4 years in the wind"
4 years......through the rain,pain,fights,bumps and bruises
breaks ups..gurls wantin to get wit me but guess what, look who i'm choosin
i'm losin, interest,love and infatuation
my family disagree wit my choice, so now i'm slowly pacin
but i dont, listen i'm hard headed to the facts
first time we talked, ya whole family disowned u cause the fact that i was black
didn't care, we would sneak around just to see each other
i remember it clear, jv game hugged up.....in sight next was ya mother..
she threaten, me and my cousin wit words unspoken
grabbed u by the arm, later that night u told bout the choken
closed minded to the world, we was young and couldn't help it
black and white together,explain in racism,trails and tribulations
put forth effort, it's funny how change settle in
after u ran away, look who was first for ya parents to start callin
i knew the facts, and where u was headed......so they knew
that u wasn't just a fuck, my love i had...was real towards u
first time i met ya mom, i was shaked at first
with words in back of my mind,repeatly i hurd from her
didn't know what to expect, should i run or chat
the whole fact of the matter was there was no turnin back
i was scared, yea i admit that but it was nothin
an the whole racial thing was done wit an ova, so we closed the curtain
moved on slowly, a year or 2 had passed
next thing i knew, i was shakin hands wit ya dad
progressin over the years, brought fights which brung tears
try to muffle the sound silently,like cotton balls in the ears
my fears would come reality, u shared ya deepest secrets
like u being raped,abandon which all lead to mistreatment
i search to another level, to give u what u need
u cried tears of joy, cause i was the one to guide u to the light when u couldn't see it
i labeled u as my angel, pride, joy and heart
engraved MRL in my arm,even if death do us part
but the fights slowly took control, of what was left that we had
the pickiness began to show,even though i never did anything bad
it was a daily thing, put me in a position to where i choose
relationship or single life, what do i do?
u cuttin ur arms, sayin u would kill urself if i leave
but thats pointless, i stood in shock just watchin ya skin tear and bleed
3 pills u popped within seconds of each other
sayin, please dont do this,ur my one and only lover
u drive off,not knownin what u was gonna do so i had to react
dail 911,emergency line to reach in contact
gave a description, ya car model and ur name
slowly hung up the phone, and began to pray
hands press together,tears rollin down my face
5 minutes passed by, an i got a call sayin u was safe
but it's just a fact i dont want u doin this shit to begin
so i guess u pushed me to the limit,there goes 4 years in the wind.............
True Event happened Tonight.......10/29/06
