Dreams

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Dreams (Title barely fits it, but i wrote both verses at different times and i didnt have a title for either.)

Dreams don't come easy for me...
So thats why it was so hard for me to see what you wanted me to be.
I tried to be real but what we both concealed was too deep for anything to reap or come from.
So instead of watching you sleep I just decided to up and leave.
I grew tired and couldn't deal with you pulling on my sleeve.
So instead I just run from what I still feel, hoping these wounds'll heal and I'll forget all about you.
Try to live without you. In my dreams I still shout to you "I Love You."
Reach out to you but instead of holding onto you I push you.
All my love has gone now because of you.
I try to move on but you're still on my mind.
I don't think of you all the time, but I still think of you as mine.
I wish I could express this distress in rhymes and handle my anger in lines.
I'm kind to my heart because I love you.
I'm lying to mind, saying that I trust you.
I don't know what I want or what it is I'm looking for.
I guess I'm looking for a cure because my hearts still yours.
My body was pure until I felt your claws.
I called you a whore because of what I saw.
I walked out your door because I was sore.
But now I see you as I've seen you before...
I now see you through my cryin' eyes with a broken mind and my heart tore.
I now see you as you were the time you were mine, I want you more.
I try to ignore these feelings but they never go away.
I don't know if they're here to stay or even if I don't want them anyway.
I hate the fact that I know I'll want you back someday.

I guess you're the type of dream I forget when I wake up...
I keep these feelings I hide inside until the day that we make up.
Maybe we were destined to break up.
Its funny 'coz I always thought that you and me were destiny.
You brought out the best in me.
But then you fucked around and got caught with the rest of me.
Look whats left of me, I'm a tragedy.
Are you glad to see me in this agony?
So sad to see you laugh when I cry.
And every kind word you've ever said is in a tear now fallin' from my eye.
Why did you lie to me and say I was 'the one'?
Then go find someone else and tell me to just move on.
We were in a loving relationship, so now where's that love gone?
How come I'm the one with tears when You're the one who hurt me?
Sitting alone now I know you'd never work with me.
Looking back now all the signs are there to see.
You lying to me.
You trying to find ways and means to escape from me when I hadnt seen you for days and weeks.
Do you hate me?
I mean it sincerly, do you hate me?
If you could take all I have and use it against me, would you?
If you could take me mentally before you hurt me physically, could you?
You tried killing me, but really you hitting me never really got to me because hitting a woman isn't in me.
How could I strike you? you said you were carrying out child.
How can you lie just to spit me, walk away an just smile?
You must hate me to take me to the edge and push me...
Try to cause a change in me so I learn I'm not a pussy.
I'll never hit you girl but you act so far above me.
You touch me with your fist but turn it to a kiss an say that you love me.
When I really know you hate me.