Greatest fear ( quick but very deep)
only way I could write this is when I thought real quick. This shit is deep to me so if i try take more time it hurts.. This was just a quick key enjoy::
Waking up earlier than the sun, to great another day
something deep is telling me to run, but i have to stay
mind is sencing evil has begun, but i cant visualise the potray
Stumbling of the bed like I weigh a ton, like a zombee I stroll
the refreshing splash of water, makes me regain my controll
today smells on silence, a deathening sound echos through the place
but I stroll to the tv, with a mysterious feeling reflection on my face
Something is lerking, and I can sence this feeling all round
My sister eyes are smerking, looking to the ground
Cant take this no more, Everyone here lives their own existance
what has life got in store, this family has no substance
I looked at her with appriciation, to get nothing but hate in return
that sets of my own anger, and my heart starts to burn
Arguments are born , all the aggresion stops the old man snoring
the days already been torn, and this is just the morning
An hour has ticked by, with silence acting as hate
mum the only good soul, has yet to awake....
but all we want is our boul, shes just there to serve and cook
but her gentle soul, could be turned into a childrens book
our calls are unanswered, as my moms rooms bring silence
old man is angry,I could sence him rammbling quiet violence
My sister went to awake mother, But in return all we got was a scream
I connected eyes with father, like we knew what my sister has seen
My greatest fear was awaken, as my mom was there but her soul was gone
for a second my life just twirled, i wasnt sure if i was ever born
three of us set around the bed, all stunned into tremendous crys
for the first time ever holding hand, knowing we just lived lies
Mothers eyes so dead, but still watchin us all together
i wanted to call the ambulance, but my legs felt like feathers
I died that day , becaouse my greatest fear really lived to the reputation
I love my mother, but I never showed her my appreciation
And now I was to late, only if i could turn back time and express
I loved her more than anything, but caoused her the most stress
This fear controlls my life, but I still treat mama like nothing
Whenever I have an outburst, She takes it as a poisonus sting
But i dont change, my brain speaks but my mouth doesnt hear
And everyday , through my head runs my biggest fear.....
